.altogether now.

.my fav pic of the lot with one person missing.

While i was there, i felt like i stepped into a varsity more than when i stepped into NTU. The feeling was really different, you could see from the outside that it looked more like a varsity then NTU. Think it's time NTU tried to do some changes, it's getting boring.

As the graduates stepped onto stage to receive their certs, some thoughts ran across my mind. Firstly, was the fact that i would be in their shoes, receiving my cert in 3 yrs time as well, hopefully (crosses my fingers). Secondly, for these graduates, most of them would be heading into NS first, afterwhich they'll either make their grand entrance into the working world or to further their studies in the various varsities. But for me, it's *bam*, working life. The sound of it just terrifies me somehow. I just can't picture myself in the working society & in addition to that i have a feeling i may not be able to get a job due to my low self esteem & confidence. These are things i need to build up before i go for interviews, otherwise i might just lose out.

Finally, after so many years of studying, taking exams etc, we are just studying for the sake of that precious piece of paper, which dictates how much we will be earning. Sounds a little sad, but it's the reality of life. As more of my friends enter into the working society, i wonder whether we will still be able to laugh as heartily as we could whenever we hang out, or will we be just talking about work non-stop, complaining about this & that, feeling stressed out etc. Will the friendship still remain, or will it just fade away becauz nobody tries to organise any meet-ups anymore?

Gavin wasn't around at the graduation ceremony. Kinda miss him. I had the chance to meet up with him but i fell sick. He's been so busy with his life that sometimes i envy him but at other times i just wish he could spend more time with us. I tried to be an understanding friend, but i think it's not enough judging from the way my other friends in the clique stands up for him. I need to buck up! He's a really nice guy i must say, that's why he has so many friends. I was afraid that he may forget about us, but he assured me that he won't. But sometimes i look at his blog with all the pics of his happy times with his varsity friends, i can't help but think that we are forgotten. I suppose i think too much, since he's a person i can never really understand. We'll see how things progress from here on ba.

Wow, just realise that that was quite a chunk of words there. These are actually some of my thoughts which have been in my mind, but i never really got down to blogging it. So i finally did it! Ha.

3:42 PM

Thursday, June 15, 2006