Yum, yum, yum
Had a great dinner 2dy at Shashilik Restaurant. It was absolutely delicious i must say. Ordered their Borsch Soup wth Garlic Bread 2 match, Escargot & a Shashilik Beef Fillet, their speciality i suppose. A sumptuous meal tht was pretty expensive but worth � money. Highly recommended. I did mention in my previous entry abt it, if i remembered correctly. Think it was quite sometime ago. Anyway if u peeps wanna knw where it is, it's at � 6th floor of Far East Shopping Centre (not plaza, � one opposite of Thai Embassy) Tis is kind of like a luxury for me, something tht i enjoy once in a while. Can't really go there & eat frequently cauz hve 2 save money & stuff, bad economy out there folks. Hopefully when i grow up, i'll be able 2 bring my frens over there 2 hve a meal, but for now, i can only go when my Mum or Aunt brings me there. Tht is provided tht it's still there by � time i grow up cauz it's been there for 20 over yrs already & � pple working there are pretty old, so if there's no younger generation 2 take over, it must jus close down you see.

Had a Cafe Latte at Starbucks, which was pretty uncomfortable since � weather was hot & pple around were smoking. (No choice, non-smoking area was fully occupied.) Sometimes i really wonder why pple like 2 smoke man, it's so unhealthy & � cigarettes cost a bomb. I'm especially turned off by gals who smoke, though i knw tht smoking doesn't reflects your character & doesn't mean tht you are bad if you smoke tht kinda thing. NS & working part time previously, made me realise tht actually there are many women who smokes, which i didn't expect. Dunno why i hve tht impression tht women shldn't smoke. Anyway bought Stefanie Sun's new album after much consideration. Sometimes jus can't hold myself back, when my idols' hve new albums, no matter how bad � album mayb. Kind of contradict wat i said abt buying albums wth at least 1/2 of � songs tht are nice, right? Well, guess there is an exception afterall. Oh, finally bought Michelle Branch's Hotel Paper, actually it's my Bro who bought it since he needed another CD 2 get a discount. Sometimes i feel tht i'm wasting money when i buy CDs, cauz i don't really listen 2 them at home or outside since i don't hve a discman. Guess it's more of collection & a way 2 spend money when � urge is there. (Remember tht there are times when u want 2 spend money but you dunno wat 2 spend on? Tht is when � urge arises.)

Supposedly wanted 2 type more, but am pretty tired since i'm chatting on ICQ while i'm typing tis, hence a lil sick of typing too much at � moment. So shall type it another day & end here. Haiz, will be doing Guard Duty later on, in a few hrs time. Guess it's gonna be a long long day man. Really sick of all these NS stuff man, sometimes i jus feel like running away frm it, but i knw i can't. Why does it hve 2 be so regimental? Why does it hve 2 be a "Do or Die" situation, as in if you break � rules, � punishment will be harsh? Can anybody tell me why......

Long Weekend
HuRrAy!!! Won't need 2 go back 2 camp on Sat. Cld hve bn a longer weekend though, if not for � fact tht we have 2 go back 2 OETI for our Trainees' Night on Fri. Will be at 6 DSMB till after lunch, afterwhich we will hve to reach OETI by 1600hrs. Honestly speaking, i rather they not hve tis function at all & release us 2 do watever we wnt 2 instd. H/e, it's still � Army so rules & regulations do apply. � worst thing is we hve 2 wait till abt 1800hrs before � function starts, which means tht we'll hve 2 do nothing during our 2hrs wait. Isn't tht a lil bit ridiculous? They cld hve allowed us 2 do watever we wntd 2 & report back by 1800hrs instd right? I don't see any point in making us go back so early 2 wait for � function 2 start. Absolute waste of time. DaRn...

Actually � long weekend is not really applicable 2 me, come 2 think abt it, since i'll be doing Guard Duty on Sun. How unlucky can i get man? Sunday's Guard Duties are pretty slack since there won't be sentry, so it's not too bad i guess. Jus treat it tht i'm relaxing myself in camp instd of � comforts of my home + family. Feeling really hungry now becauz i ate too little earlier on. Dinner wasn't really tht nice, � reason 4 me eating tht little. Dunno whether i shld cook some noodles now & get scolded by my Aunt or 2 cook later, after she has slept, which wld be pretty late.

What a small small world......
� world seems so small when you find out tht some of your frens knw other frens of yours tht kinda thing. It's like after a little chat with him, you realise tht actually he knws someone whom you knw as well, which kinda link all of us together, creating some sort of like a neverending circle of frens. Or mayb we are related 2 each other in some ways of another, jus tht we don't realise it. Something like tht happened 2 me, making me think tht it's actually pretty coincidental & tht � world is not really tht big as wat i imagine it 2 be. Anyway talking abt frens, met one of my sec sch classmates on � bus as i was heading home yesterday. Really dunno why, but it seems like there's a high tendency for me 2 meet pple ever since i've been at 6 DSMB. Who knws, there might be even more pple tht i knw of whom are being located at � nearby camps, which i don't knw of. (Jus for your info, there are quite a few more camps down � road frm my camp. Mayb tht's why i frequently bump into pple tht i knw of.)

Nxt mth's Guard Duty timetable was out yesterday & am pretty satisfied wth it since i'll be doing it wth someone tht i'm familiar wth. Am wondering whether it's normal to do 2 Guard Duties per mth, since i heard frm my frens tht they only do 1 Guard Duty per mth. Mayb there's a smaller population here compared 2 other camps, hence hve no choice but 2 make us do more. My course is ending soon & i'm pretty apprehensive abt being posted here. Initially, it sounded so much better 2 be posted here then 2 be posted 2 a unit alone, but after tht i realise tht it wasn't as great as wat i'd imagine it 2 be. I hve a feeling tht life's gonna be tough there since i don't think we left a very good impression 2 � permanent staff there. There were alot of problems created ever since we were there, it's like we've disrupted � peace & quietness of � place, instd we've created havoc or hell. Due 2 � friction btwn us, i think they wld probably hate us for all � problems & xtra work tht they hve 2 do. But we are � innocent party i must say because it's not like we wld wnt such problems 2 arise. It's due 2 � new system tht they are trying out, which results in even more hiccups here & there such as breakdown in communication in terms instructions not being pass down properly & lack of instructors. We are � Guinea Pigs, so as 2 say, which proves � fact tht we are innocent & shld not be blamed. But there's nothing much we can do since we are still trainees, which means tht there's a high possibility of being pushed here & there. Really dislike being pushed here & there man, it makes us feel like we aren't human & we don't hve feelings.

In addition, was chatting with a course-mate who will be posted out, & realise tht actually it's not really tht gd 2 stay there due 2 � politics involved etc, since he's been there longer than i hve & hve seen much more. (Before � course started, he was already there doing nothing or wat we call "lobo-ing".) Guess there's politics everywhere. All these things kinda make me changed my mind abt leading a great & slack life there, though i've seen how slack it can actually be. Hopefully they won't mistreat us or arrow us 2 do all � things as a form of revenge, a form of making our lives difficult. Oops, digressing too much, hehez. SiGnZzZz.....

Feeling lethargic evrydy after "work" lately, even though i've had at least 6 hrs of sleep � day before. Wonder whether it's becauz of taking too much naps during breaks cauz sleeping too much can make you feel even more tired & restless instd of feeling refreshed & energised. Mayb it's time i don't nap too much. But napping did help me 2 eat less since i won't be heading for � canteen. Hve been cutting down on my consumption ever since my belly started 2 grow. It's really a sore 2 � eye & i'm really very determined 2 flatten it. Tomorrow will be another boring day.

Life is jus so sucky at times.

Gambling Den
Tht's wat my house has become of, every Sat night. My Bro wld bring his frens over & play Mahjong in his room, which means tht i won't be able 2 use � computer at all. And as most of u peeps knw, there's nothing much 2 watch on TV on Sat nights, so there's nothing much i cld do tht night except 2 turn in early which wld make my weekend a little shorter, at least tht's wat i think. Sometimes, i really don't like � idea of my Bro bringing his frens over 2 play Mahjong, cauz it disturbs � family as some of them were already asleep & tht i won't be able 2 use � computer. So i turned in early yesterday night, which i felt tht i've wasted my weekend since i knew tht i won't be heading out 2dy. Mayb tht's why i suffer frm xtreme Monday Blues...

Went 2 KTV yesterday wth my frens. Went 2 � one at Hello Singtel in Orchard, � one tht took over � former Popular store. It was pretty alright, but i felt tht K-Box was much better. Actually, i think tht i'm wasting my money whn i go KTV cauz i've lost touch wth Chinese songs since i don't really listen 2 them at all nowadays except for songs of artistes tht i like. As u peeps knw, KTV is more for singing Chinese songs since there's MTV 2 � songs wth lyrics & stuff. Whereas for English songs, they don't usually hve MTVs wth lyrics. Sometimes it's either having � MTV w/o � lyrics or no MTV but wth lyrics. So it's kinda pointless 2 sing English songs whn u head 2 KTV.

Had dinner at Fish & Co. at � Centrepoint outlet, which i didn't knw tht there's one there at 1st. Ordered their Swordfish Collar, recommended by Gavin, which was a very big portion. It was pretty nice jus tht it was over-fried & it's skin got a little bit hard 2 chew. It's meat was pretty tender though & i was bloated after finishing it. Headed home shortly, after strolling & chatting.

I think wat i said earlier abt being in NS makes a guy more stupid is very true, since it was proven by Gavin yesterday while i was meeting him. I shan't really elaborate on it cauz i think i wld embarrass him. But it was such a funny thing 2 happen tht i kept laughing whenever i thought abt it yesterday or shld i say till now, hahaz. Sometimes Gavin is really a joker man, he tends 2 do things tht are funny w/o him noticing it himself. He's kinda like � guy who brings joy & laughter 2 � grp, Zongfu as well, at least tht's wat i think. Really feel honoured & glad 2 knw them, hehe. SiGnz, really don't wish for � coming wk 2 pass by 2 quickly cauz i wld be doing Guard Duty on Sun. H/e, i don't really wnt it 2 drag for too long cauz it wld make � days seem too difficult 2 pass by. Contradicting....hAiz...

Life is so contradicting at times.

Only Eat Talk Idle
Went back 2 Ayer Rajah Camp or OETI on Wed & Thurs for my Individual Operational Field Skills course, which can be said as a total waste of time. Learnt some topography, voice procedure, as well as Global Positioning System, which wasn't really taught very properly, � reason 4 me saying it an utter waste of time. H/e, it was a pretty good thing though, 2 relax for 2 dys frm lessons. Kinda miss those dys tht were spent in OETI man, taking a nap after lunch, � famous chicken wing at � canteen & air-conditioned classrooms where we attend lessons. I relived those moments 4 tht 2 dys there, ate till my fill during � breaks tht i had, which makes me feel a little sinful now cauz of � oily food i consumed. Too bad, it was only for a short period of 2 dys only. SiGnZzZz....

My course will be ending soon, which means tht i'll be getting down 2 work soon. Hopefully, it won't be tht difficult as what i thought of it 2 be. Heard frm one of my course-mates tht most probably half of those tht are posted to 6 DSMB, � camp i'm in right now, will be posted out 2 other units. In other words, there's a probability tht i mayb posted out 2 a combat unit. Tis means tht i may hve 2 work alone wth no other course-mates tagging along & tht i may hve 2 stay-in. Well, i'll leave it 2 fate though i don't really want 2 get posted out of there. Think tht's it's pretty scary 2 handle everything alone once you are in a unit. Hopefully, � news tht i heard is inaccurate.

Perfect 10 98.7FM All Hits All Day
Called thru 2 Morning Madness by a stroke of luck i suppose. It's been a long time since i've called Carrie on � phone, so decided 2 give it a try. Afterall, she was � 1st DJ fren tht i made during my JC days while i was studying for my exams. Still remember uring tht time, i wld try 2 call thru once a week 2 make a song dedication or shld i say more of 2 chat wth her. Ok, i knw, sounds very buaya but for those who knw me, i'm not tht type of person. Managed 2 call thru 2 Jean as well, my 2nd DJ fren, unexpectedly i must say. Cauz it was nearing � end of her programme & if u peeps do notice, she doesn't really take alot of calls as compared 2 last time. My campmate sitting beside me saw me calling & took away my phone 2 check whether it's thru. Suddenly he said "Hello" & i thought he was kidding me. But apparently he wasn't & it really got thru, hahaz. Think i'm getting back my old habit, provided tht i'm free & hve nothing better 2 do larhz.

Didn't go out on Sun cauz had nobody 2 go out wth, stayed at home instd which also meant tht i hvn't bought � bday present yet. Still hve no idea wat 2 buy yet, hopefully i'll be more hardworking & i'll head on 2 town 2 look for it. Today was � Monday Blues day, � day which i hate � most & � day which i'm most lethargic. Actually it's not only me larhz, most of � peeps there are like tht as well on Mons. Didn't do anything much, was pretty slack 2dy. Shall end here now, still need 2 wake up early tomorrow for my 4.8km run. SiAnz, tomorrow wld be a tiring day...

World Combat
Didn't do anything much 4 � past 2 dys, jus went out & walked around. Watched The League of Extraordinary Gentlemen yesterday though & thought tht it was not bad. Initially my Bro told me tht it was a little bit better than � Hulk but not as good as Tomb Raider 2, which meant 2 me tht it was kind of like a flop, since both weren't really nice. But i didn't think it was so after watching � show, it was not as bad as wat my Bro told me. Got hooked on World Combat after Zongfu introduced me 2 tis game. 1st time i played a shooting game in � arcade since i'm not really a sharp shooter. It was a pretty hard game 2 play though & quite an expensive one as well. Cost $1.50 per game & i always died b4 even completing � 2nd stage. Wonder whether there's anybody who cld complete all � stages.

Passed by a maid agency on Fri & sympathise wth those maids who were down there. They were all sitting down in one corner, doing practically nothing but watching video tapes on cooking. They had their luggages piled up in one corner, implying tht they were ready 2 move in anytime a customer decided 2 employ them. I guess it's their only way of making a decent living in order 2 provide for their families. If they had a choice, i don't think they wld wnt 2 be away frm their families for such long periods. Tis kinda make me feel bad abt those things tht i cld hve done it myself but instd left it for my mum 2 do it for me or those times when i keep on complaining abt luxury gds tht i don't get 2 buy etc. Shld learn 2 be more appreciative i guess......

Having difficulty looking fot a birthday present right now cauz i don't really knw wat 2 buy. Hopefully will be able 2 get something if i do go out later. Woke up pretty early 2dy, cldn't really slp, don't knw why. Tht's why i'm here right now 2 update my blog. Otherwise, i wld hve slept till lunch time man.

Holland Village
Think tht tis show is really very nice, heartwarming & touching as well, made me teared during today's episode. I think it is close 2 � heart in � sense tht it depicts a Singaporean style of life & reflects wat is happening in our country. To me, � actors & actresses tht make up tis show plays a very important part in making � show a success, besides it's scripts & othr stuff. I consider shows nice, if � actors or actresses in � show can make me hate, love, sympathise wth, pity etc their characters in � show. This shows tht their acting skills are pretty good, for eg. in tis show, i personally think tht Ou Xuan (Jing Jing), Chen Liping & Xie Shaoguang acted really well. Hve 2 give credit 2 Cynthia Koh as well, for making me hate her character in � show.

Guard Duties seems 2 be causing alot of problems in my camp. It's like we trainees are on course there, wth half of � platoon going 2 units after their course ends, while � othr half wld be staying at � camp or wat we call base. So my instructor told us many times tht during our free time, especially those who will be going 2 units since they won't really get 2 practise anymore once they reach their respective units, when we aren't doing sentry or desktop duties, we are suppose 2 report back for lessons. Initially there wasn't any big problems, h/e due 2 � recent Jakarta bombings, security was raised & we were told tht we don't hve 2 report back for lessons. For � past 2 days, my instructor wasn't around so those tht went for Guard Duty didn't come back for lessons, as they were told to. But when my instructor came back 2dy, he was furious when he got 2 knw tht those tht were doing Guard Duty didn't report back for lessons. He gave us a scolding which i think is pretty unreasonable cauz we were told tht we don't hve 2 attend lessons. Besides tht, he was so furious tht he almost quarrelled wth � Sergeant Major, someone who is in charge of � discipline matters & other miscellaneous stuff there, right in front of us. Really think they shldn't hve made us do Guard Duties there, if they don't want us 2 miss lessons. In tht case, there won't be any problems at all. � Sergeant Major was pretty innocent as well cauz he was merely carrying out orders by another higher ranking officer in � camp. Think we trainees are � most innocent ones, got scolding for nothing, even if we followed instructions given by any higher ranking officers. Wat 2 do, we aren't called trainees for nothing u knw.

Life is just so unfair.

Everytime when i'm leaving my camp, � bus tht i plan 2 take wld jus leave � bus stop, making me wait 15mins for � nxt bus. Really dunno why but � buses tht i take seem 2 hve long waiting hours. Dunno whether it's my area or i'm jus so unlucky. HaizZz......Having flat feet sucks as well man. Everyday my legs wld be dead tired & sometimes they wld be pretty painful due 2 � long standing hrs & � lack of stools for us 2 seat while attending lessons. Actually was used 2 standing for long hrs during SJAB days, where i had footdrill trainings. But due 2 � lack of trainings now, ever since i left SJAB, i guess my legs aren't really used 2 it yet. Don't think i'll be getting a new D.I.Y computer anytime soon afterall. Supposedly cld hve gotten it 2dy, h/e my aunt told my Bro not 2 buy it since it was � seventh mth, which i find it a little bit ridiculous. Being a filial nephew, i'll jus heed 2 her advice instd of going against her, which means tht i'll hve 2 wait till late Aug b4 i can get it. HaizZz......Really really can't stand my current computer. ArGhZzzzz...Think i'm complaining too much, shall end here.

Yupz, Singapore's 38 already. Quite young as compared 2 China, haha. Was watching NDP jus now, & was reminded of � time i participated in it as an SJAB member during my sec sch days. I felt really proud & honoured 2 be part of � NDP, though i played only a minor role in it. It was kinda like a once in a lifetime thingy. � atmosphere at � moment was really overwhelming & touching. Thousands of people involved in celebrating somebody's birthday, it's really a big event man. Honestly speaking, sometimes while i'm watching NDPs, it makes me really proud 2 be a Singaporean, no matter how much i complain abt � Govt making NS compulsory for all men, � education system, � lack of amusement parks, � lack of places 2 go etc, as well as touched. Think abt it, you are living in a country tht is free frm natural disasters, free frm war, free frm riots & terrorist attacks, etc. It's kinda difficult 2 find such a place man. It's a place where all my memories are, a place where i live & definitely a place call home. Sounds really clich� right? Like one of � national day songs or sth like tht right? Hahaz.

Didn't do anything much 2day, jus went out 4 lunch wth Alison & Huiting. It's been a long time since i've met them. Alison looks � same jus tht her hair is now longer. As 4 Huiting, it's still her, not much change, except tht she owns a cute little digital camera now, haha. Went 2 Swensens & ordered their Crayfish Pasta, which wasn't really nice cauz it's Crayfish wasn't really fresh & it seemed like it was prepared ages ago since it wasn't hot. Walked around wth them b4 they headed for NDP, while i joined my Mum & 2 Aunts for Coffee, since my frens weren't free or out in town. Had their Boston Nut Brownie Cake again + their White Chocolate Dream, which wasn't really tht good. Walked around wth them again, afterwhich i decided 2 go home 1st, since i was pretty bored & didn't really hve � mood 2 walk ard as well. Skipped dinner as well cauz didn't hve � apetite at all. Reached home & watched NDP + Lost World throughout � entire night, which i felt tht i've wasted � long weekend.

Forgot 2 update u peeps on my Guard Duty on Thurs. It was pretty slack considering � amt of time i slept throughout. There wasn't any prowling, which i thought they wld hve cauz of � Jakarta bombing, only sentry duties during � day + desktop duties. Was kinda pissed off wth a female officer, due 2 � fact tht me & another guy was being complained due 2 us not greeting her as she left & entered � camp. It wasn't really our fault, since she was sitting in a postion which we cldn't really see due 2 � reflection of � bright sun on � car windows. Besides, don't understand why she's so particular abt greeting her when many other male higher ranking officers don't seem 2 mind abt it at all. So wat if she's a Lieutenant, big deal. Sianz, still got one more Guard Duty tis month, which falls on a Sunday. Think it'll be even more boring then a weekday one. Haiz, jus hate Guard Duties. Oh, think i'll be buying a new computer or shld i say a new CPU tomorrow. Finally, my bro has decided 2 buy it after mths of consideration. Won't be buying Dell, will be buy those D.I.Y ones frm Sim Lim instead, jus tht we won't be fixing it ourselves i suppose. Hopefully we won't get cheated & � combination of � parts doesn't cause it 2 crash or sth like tht. His fren will be bringing us there, since my bro says tht he's more experienced in this. Really can't wait for it man......

Something strange happened jus now: Smoke was coming out frm � newly installed VCR in my Bro's room. At 1st, i heard a strange noise & was figuring out where it came frm. � nxt second, i saw smoke coming out frm � VCR which kinda freaked me out cauz i didn't do anything to it at all. My aunt was around & was totally freaked out by it as well. Quickly went 2 switch � main power supply, jus in case there's a electricity breakdown or something. Really wondered why it wld be like tht, though nothing was done to it. It was brand new, as wat my Mum told me, which was even surprising 2 hve tis type of thing happening.

YeAh! Won't be doing Guard Duty alone 2molo, will be accompanied by another 2 of my course-mates. Feeling much better right now, since i won't be alone, feeling lost & stuff like tht. Better 2 hve somebody u knw around wth u, then hve strangers around u. Hopefully won't need 2 prowl at night, which depends on � Duty Officer, whether he's a slacker or a garang (outstanding) soldier. In tht case, i'll be able 2 get enough slp, which will last me thru � entire Fri. Think my officers are really trying to kill us, by making us go for lessons, during times when we weren't doing any duties, in � afternoon. Supposedly we didn't hve 2 attend any lessons 4 � entire day if we had Guard Duty, which means tht we can really slack, since tis is afterall a 24hr Guard Duty. H/e, due 2 � rush of time & not wanting us 2 miss lessons, we hve 2 go back whenever we are resting or not doing any duties. Luckily, our Guard Rest on � nxt day is not taken away, as in after our duty, we are given 2 hrs of rest b4 going back 2 our lessons, otherwise i wld seriously think tht it's very unfair to us.

Oh well, nothing much i can do abt it. All i can say is tht tis trial thingy (If i hve not mention b4, my batch is actually � 1st batch 2 test out tis new system, 2 see whether it's more effective as compared 2 � previous system) is very screwed up. Nothing's really gone according 2 schedule & i can also say tht we aren't really taught properly. Guess � grp is too big, tht's why there's difficulty juggling all of us, besides there's a lack of instructors as well. Watever larhz......SiAnz, doing Guard Duty tomorrow. Really hate doing it man. Hopefully time will fly past when i'm there, otherwise it wld be a miserable night for me man. Wish me luck, hahaz.

YoZ Peeps!!! Back again 2 update. It's been a pretty fun weekend since Gavin had � car & drove us around. � only main problem tht we had was � destination, where 2 go & wat 2 do. Last time, whn we had 2 no car & had 2 travel by public transport, we didn't hve much places tht we cld go 2 due 2 � distance concerned when heading back home. But now wth a car, we are able 2 go 2 places tht we seldom or nvr been 2, provided tht we knw of nice places 2 go 2 tht opens till a very late time. H/e, having a car also means tht some will hve 2 go back home themselves & tht it wld be pretty troublesome if we wntd 2 go 2 another destination if � grp is big, due 2 � max capacity of only 5 pple. Unless another of us gets a driving license, it wld be pretty difficult 2 explore places wth grps tht are >5, tht is provided tht they do hve a car 2 drive. But honestly speaking, sometimes it's better 2 use public transport cauz it's faster & more convenient since we do not hve 2 look for parking lots. Besides, it's not cheap 2 travel on a car considering � petrol prices. On � other hand, public transport fees are on � rise. WhAt � heLL, so cOntRadiCtinG!!! wAteVa...

Ended my crave for coffee on Sat though, after having Vanilla Ice Blended (� coffee one) & Vanilla Latt� at Coffee Bean. In addition, ate � Boston Nut Brownie (don't really recall � exact name) which was pretty sweet but still nice, since i'm a brownie lover. While on � car wth my close frens, recalling on � times we used 2 spend together during sec sch & jc days made us realise tht we are at � next phase of our lives. I know this sounds really clich� but it really really does seem tht it was only yesterday, tht we were in sec sch or jc etc, doing those silly stuff. It really does bring back great memories man. I've also come 2 realise tht true frens are really hard 2 come by & if we don't treasure it, it might jus slip & go away, making u regret for your entire life. I dunno whether i'll be able 2 find true frens like � ones tht i hve, when i enter University or � workforce. Even if i'm not able 2 find any, i'm contented wth wat i have now. I don't need 2 hve many of them in order 2 stay happy or 2 show tht i'm not alone tht kinda thing, it's not � quantity tht counts. Having too many frens makes it easier for u to lose contact wth them since u might not be able 2 go out wth each & every one of them all � time. It's better 2 keep � circle 2 a suitable & manageable size rather than 2 let it go out of hand. To me, there's many types of frens tht one is able 2 classify. One is frens tht u cannot do w/o, in othr words, true, best or good frens which will stand by u. Another is frens tht u meet at workplaces, schools, army etc. These are frens tht u go out or meet up once in a while. There exist another grp which i call acquaintances. There are people whom u say "Hi" & "Bye", when u see them on � streets.

SiAnz, another week has gone & it's � beginning of a new one. Really dread going back 2 camp tomorrow man. How i wish we could have longer weekends & shorter weekdays. My weekends always seem too short & i cld never get enough of it. Will be doing Guard Duty this week as well, which makes me hate it even more. But wat 2 do, no choice, jus pray hard tht � weekdays pass by quickly. Dunno why, but feel tht i'm digressing too much tht i don't really knw wat i'm typing right now. It's like there's no link btwn paragraphs. wAt � f**K

Life is really fragile & brittle, which i've come 2 realise after a recent event tht had happened: My brother's close fren's brother passed away due 2 an accident. You never really knw wat will happen 2 u in � next instant, which shows how precious life can be man. It's really very sad tht he died at an early age of only 21 yrs old, wth 5 more days to either his ORD date or his birthday. My mom cldn't slp � whole night after hearing abt � news frm my bro. A sad thing indeed, but it's part & parcel of everybody's life, where people will eventually die.

Was watching � Amazing Race jus now & am pretty disgusted by one of � detours tht they had 2 go thru. They had 2 eat live tiny octopuses, which were slimy & were still moving even after it was being cut into pieces. YuCkSsSsSs!!! Only � married gay team went for tis detour, � rest went for � other detour instead. Talking abt gay, was watching Ok! No Problem on Channel U, which was discussing on gay issues. Really applaud � gay guy who stood out, telling � public abt � problems tht gay faces & how other people look at gay people. Think it really takes alot of courage 2 stand out & speak on behalf of � gay community. Really think tht we shldn't discriminate them jus becauz they behave differently frm normal people. They are afterall human beings wth � ability 2 do � same things tht normal human beings are able 2 do, jus tht they like people of � same sex. H/e, i can't really accept transvestite though. Tht is quite an extreme case which kinda disgusts me, which i've seen alot of while i was working part time at Rocky Masters before i enlisted. Oh well, people choose � way they want 2 live their lives, hence � existence of different lifestyles.

Been feeling exhausted everyday after "work", it's like abt 9pm+, i wld doze off while watching TV. Wat i do at "work" isn't really tht rigorous, it's jus tht i hve 2 stand practically � whole day except for break times, which aren't really very long. Besides tht, it's pretty hot there & i pespire practically � whole day as well, making me feel sticky everyday after "work", which worsens my complexion as well. Acnes have been popping out & i'm really annoyed by it, making me dislike myself each day. It never seems 2 improve no matter how much attention i pay 2 it, though i hve 2 admit tht i didn't put in alot of effort. Going 2 � skin centre didn't really help & it's really expensive. Really at a lost as 2 wat 2 do man. Sometimes i feel so poisonous abt myself, like my blood is full of toxic which wld never be clean. HaiZzZzz.......