Time really flies man, another week gone. Didn't do anything much on Fri & Sat, were � most slackest days tht i've had so far. On Fri, there was only IMT (Computerised Range Trainings) in � afternoon. Other than tht, i practically did nothing at all. As for yesterday, there was only Weights Training + Games in � morning, before booking out at 0945hrs, � earliest i've booked out so far. I guess � reason for booking out early this week is becauz i might be booking out only on Sat Night or Sunday nxt week. Talking abt nxt week, there's loads of activities going on. Field Camp starts on Tues, which lasts till Thurs. I won't be going into � Jungle & stuff like tht due 2 my status. Think i'll most probably be doing stuff at � school itself, as in where my bunk & cookhouse etc are. On Fri, i think i'm having Range, � real thing. Tht one will take up my whole day cauz there's day & night shooting. On Sat, i'll be having BIC, it's like u have 2 wear your helmut, carry your rifle + SBO, & leopard crawl on � ground with machine guns firing above of u tht kinda thing. As u peeps can see, it's a damn busy week for me. Have a feeling tht i'll be dead tired & i won't be having enough sleep. Hopefully all these activities will take up alot of time and makes me feel tht time passes pretty quickly, otherwise i wld start 2 think & think & think again.

Was hoping tht i cld clear my extra by doing Guard Duty on Fri this week, unfortunately, they planned 2 put me to do duty on Wed � week after nxt. Luckily it's on a weekday, otherwise i may have 2 stay in camp on Sat 2 do Guard Duty before booking out on Sunday morning & booking in on Sunday evening again. PheWwww..... Anyway watched Matrix Reloaded yesterday, think � action scenes are pretty amazing though it can get quite boring due 2 � overdose of it. For eg, � part where Neo fight against thousands of Agent Smith, it was kind of long & neverending, so it can get quite boring. � most exciting part was � part on � highway, it was damn cool man. Some scenes were pretty fake as well, like Neo being superman, was kinda funny too. Overall, i think it was pretty nice, h/e, i still don't really understand wat it is all about. I find tht this show is seriously very deep, confusing & to me, difficult 2 understand. Tried very hard 2 listen 2 wat they were saying, but in � middle of their conversations, i tend 2 jus lose my way & simply don't understand what � hell they were talking abt.

After � movie, went for dinner @ Fish & Co which was pretty late, resulting in our delayed order as well as their delayed closing. Got a glass of free Ice Lemon Tea 2 compensate us for making us wait for our orders. Went home after tht since we had nothing much better 2 do. Hey anybody got any suggestions as 2 any place which opens till quite a late time & is near town, where we cld jus chill out, have a drink of coffee or watever? Can't really think of any whenever i'm out with my frens, tht's why i tend 2 go home quite early instd of staying out & chit chat. Jus realised tht i hvn't been able 2 shop around town whenever i get 2 book out. It's like my book out days are always movies, dinner & back home. Hopefully there aren't many nice shows coming up so tht i can walk ard town 2 shop, see whether there r any nice stuff 2 buy. Having � urge 2 buy something but dunno what i wanna buy. It's like u jus wanna spend some money on something, tht kinda feeling.

Spending my time home 2day cauz i think i seriously need more rest. Still having tht seasick thingy where my head feels like everything around me is still moving up & down. Dunno why i hve tis feeling cauz i don't normally get seasick tht easily. Hopefully this feeling will go away asap otherwise i won't be feeling 2 good whenever i'm in camp. Think i'll be getting a new comp next mth or so cauz my bro kind of like asked me 2 prepare some money 2 buy it. Think i'll be changing mainly my CPU, a D.I.Y one if i'm not wrong. � monitor will still stay instd of changing 2 a flat screen or LCD one since we aren't tht rich. Really can't wait man cauz my current com seriously sucks 2 � core man. Will be booking in @ 1915 later, siAnZzzZzz, � same feeling or sentiments as my other booking in days, SiGnZzzZzz.....Gotta go & have my tea break pretty soon, afterwhich i think i'll be having a nap in tis ultimately hot weather. Really can't stand � weather man, i'm like sweating even though � fan is blowing directly at me. Oh talking abt tea break, think i've grown a little bit more fat as wat my mother said of me. Quite happy abt it cauz i always think tht i'm too skinny. Been eating alot recently as well, guess it's due 2 trainings in camp. Alright, shall end here now. Jus tAke lotSa care peeps & AdiOsSs....CiAoZZz...

Stayed at home for � whole day today. Wanted 2 go out with my mum & aunt, but was quite lazy. Besides had 2 watch � shows tht my mum recorded for me a long time ago. Didn't really sleep alot though i'm very tired. It's like i slept at abt 3am this morning & by 8am i'm up. Guess i'm used 2 � waking up early thingy. Still feeling a little seasick, like my mind is still on a ship, moving up & down tht kinda thing. Has been like tht everytime i went home frm camp. 2 more hrs & i'll be booking in again, sianz. Luckily there's this Sat to book out if there's no Guard Duty and stuff. Going for dinner with my mum and aunt before heading down 2 Pasir Ris. Gotta go now, they r like rushing me. CyAz & take lotsa care. ByezZzz....

Outfield Trainings are no fun man. Having lessons on outfield stuff since Monday. Outfield trainings are sweaty & tiring, you have 2 wear your helmut & SBO + carrying your rifle. Some even have 2 carry a field pack full of mess tins or like me today, had 2 carry a field pack full of tent pins & groundsheets today, which was seriously very heavy & tiring. With all these stuff on you, standing under � bright sunlight, it really drains your energy. Besides, i hve 2 wear � stinky uniform for a few days, depending on whether i hve time 2 wash it as well as 2 dry it before putting it on again � next time. Luckily, there's this Vesak Day 2 give me a break frm all those outfield trainings. Nevertheless, think next week's lessons will be mostly on outfield stuff, so it doesnt really make a difference. Actually, these lessons are taught in preparation for � upcoming field camp. Though I don't need 2 attend � field camp due 2 my status, i still hve 2 go for � lessons. In a way quite happy tht i don't hve 2 go for it, cauz it's very tiring & tedious. But think it shld be quite fun, as wat most of my frens tell me. Tht's why i always say, i'm not truly a soldier.

Basically, for � past few days, i've been learning abt camouflaging in � forest, disciplines in � forest, firing in � forest, etc. Camouflaging is not really very easy as it seems. You have 2 put � camou cream on your entire face as well as your chest area & hands tht are exposed while wearing your uniform. In addition, you hve 2 pluck leaves 2 cover your entier body so as not 2 let your enemy see you. Sometimes you even hve 2 roll on muddy grounds jus 2 move frm point 2 point & many many other stuff larhz. Shall not elaborate, jus in case you peeps get bored by it. Was suppose 2 learn 2 build a Basha Tent today, h/e halfway during � lesson, we had 2 rush back 2 company line as something serious happened. It was regarding � SARS thing @ IMH. They had 2 check 2 see whether anyone of us has been these before & other related stuff. Initially i thought tht someone there had contracted SARS resulting in our cancelling of our lesson & mayb � probability of booking out early. Well, guess i miss home 2 much, haha.

Got 2 booked out 2day @ 2115, much later than some other companies which booked out in � early & late afternoon. Sometimes seeing them book out early makes me jealous man. Besides tht, they book out early + book in late, which is totally different frm us. It's like they hve more than 24hrs of book out time, while my company gives us less than 24hrs of book out time. Was thinking tht mayb those tht book out early & book in late, are those companies tht hve completed most of their trainings. But it's not � case cauz there was this company tht came in � same time as us & may hve only completed � same amt of trainings as us, and they still book out earlier than us & book in later than us. Well, hope you peeps understand wat i mean, hehe. Oh talking abt booking out, might not be able 2 book out this Sat cauz i had 2 sign an extra for losing a small part of my rifle (for those who knw, i lost my washer). This means tht if there's anything tht � sergeants need me 2 do, they'll ask me 2 do it as a form of punishment. Heard frm my frens tht it's most likely Guard Duty, which is not really a good thing. Panicked in � morning & told � sergeants tht i lost it. In � end, one of my platoon mates told me during our outfield training tht he had an extra washer. So i quickly got it frm him & thought nothing was going 2 happen. God knws why � sergeants hve such good memories man, they actually remembered tht i lost my washer. So i jus told them i found it in my pocket instd of losing it, but still he said tht i had 2 sign an extra due 2 my negligence. Haiz, was really upset abt it but there's nothing i cld do abt it. Oh well, i'll hve 2 be more careful � nxt time i guess.

Mother's Day was jus a few days ago & i didn't buy anything for my mum. But i did wish her a Happy Mother's Day while i was in camp & kinda told her some things tht i've never said 2 her before. Sounds kinda mushy but i suddenly felt � urge of saying it 2 her. She told me 2 stop cauz it almost made her wanna cry. I cldn't continue as well cauz my eyes were filled with tears. Guess going 2 NS really did make me realise alot of stuff. So on � bright side, going 2 NS does teach me alot of stuff. Anyway think i shall end here, really really very very tired now. I'm feeling kinda seasick with my head feeling a little giddy. Guess it's way past my lights off time, tht's why. So cyAz peeps & take lotSa cAre.....NiGhtzZzZzzz....

YoZzz peeps, back again!Finally, e long awaited dy, e end of my confinement. Which means tht i'll only have 2 stay in camp for 5 dys a week, for e following wks 2 come. YyeAaAaHHhHhh!!! H/e, due 2 e fact tht i failed my IPPT Categorisation test (e equivalent of NAPFA w/o sit & reach), i think i'll be booking out later or book in earlier than those tht pass their test. This means tht while others r doing their own stuff, i'll most prob be doing some training in camp a.k.a Remedial Training (RT). Honestly speaking, i really don't like e feeling of staying back in camp jus 2 train for this, but i really had no choice. Cldn't do any pull ups due 2 my muscle ache, was really demoralised by tht. I was able 2 do it while i was in JC, but now, i can only like do 2 pull ups? hAiz...feeling quite bad abt myself, like i'm a weakling tht kinda thing. Oh well, guess i'm meant 2 be a weakling, jus feel so unfit now.

Alright, shall update u on wat happened during these past few days. After booking in, i had diarrhoea. It's like i go 2 e toilet a few times a day & nothing solid comes out. There was once e pain was quite excruciating, almost reported sick, but was thinking 2 myself tht i had better not do so, otherwise i might miss out some important lessons or test, which i may hve 2 stay back in camp 2 retake alone. After a few dys later, i was feeling much better. The day before parents visiting day, wanted 2 call my mum 2 tell her not 2 bring too many food stuff for me 2 eat, since i was recovering frm my diarrhoea. Cldn't contact her, so called my bro 2 convey e message instd. When my parents came e nxt dy, they didn't bring anything 2 eat except for some herbal tea 2 drink. Apparently, my bro told my mum not 2 bring anything for me 2 eat. Luckily, i was able 2 buy some food frm e canteen tht day, otherwise i'll hve 2 look at other pple eating their fastfood & other stuff which i hvn't eat for a long long time & tht i'm craving for. Sometimes when u wish tht time quickly pass by so tht u'll be able 2 do this & tht. But e more u try 2 think tht way, e more time passes by slowly. Like during e parents visiting day, i really hope tht time wld not pass by tht quickly cauz i really don't want 2 go back for training & stuff like tht. H/e, my parents really had nothing 2 do there, so decided 2 let them leave early instd of asking them 2 stay with me till e time comes.

Weekends at Tekong are still alright, not much trainings. More relaxing & more free time. Guess it's a way 2 balance out their activities so as not 2 make life too tough for people who are being confined cauz some pple might not be able 2 adapt 2 such changes in such a short period of time. Actually, i feel quite lucky tht i was once in a uniform grp. It kinda gives me a mental preparation for such regimental life. As for this week, it was learning all e new stuff, like e Grenade Throwing procedure, Rifle Drill, First Aid, Range stuff, etc. It was still quite alright, except for e fact tht i'm kinda getting bored by what we hve 2 do in e morning, which repeats everyday. It's like always e usual stuff, water parade followed by 5BX with run, followed by temp taking, followed by breakfast, followed by drawing of arms, followed by area cleaning. So bloody sianz, no choice, tht's life for now.

Thought i will be confined this weekend cauz 2 of my bunkmates fooled around & was kinda caught by other company's instructors, who reported 2 some big shot, who was ard e area. They didn't like hide abt wat they hve done, instd they owned up since they felt they didn't do anything wrong. Had a Company Stand By Area, meaning tht e big shot will go around 2 check whether we did clean our bunks & stuff. At 1st i thought we wld be very mean & criticised on every little thing tht was not up 2 his standards, but it was actually merely putting on a show for him. In e end, my 2 bunkmates were recommended for Guard Duty as their punishment, which in a way i'm quite relieved 2 knw, since my mind was telling me tht since they were frm ur platoon & ur section, e whole platoon or section mayb confined. Immediately after tht, my bunkmates were continuing 2 joke around tht kinda thing, which kinda help loosen e tension in me. Sometimes i feel i take things too seriously, resulting in me overthinking abt some minor stuff. Guess mayb tht's why my bunkmates tend 2 be more happy than me, cauz they r those happy-go-lucky type of pple. They r those tht do not overdo things, try 2 act smart or are very initiative. They r more 2 the "u give me this amt, i return u e same amt, no more no less", kind of person. Get what i mean?

After e IPPT Categorisation test, i was able 2 book out. Thought i'll be booking out at 3-4pm like tht, instead i got 2 book out at like 11am. Was quite happy abt it at 1st, but when e booking in timing was announced, i was like "wat the hell, so early?" Going 2 book in at 1730hrs later. Think it's cauz of e extra holiday tht we'll be having next week, tht's why e early book in. Anyway, after booking out, met up with Zongfu for lunch since he was around e vaccinity. Was super hungry man, ate Handmade noodles + additional noodles. After tht, decided 2 head 2 Macdonald's for a drink only but was tempted by e fries & apple pie. So bought them & eat as well. Guess exercising really does make u go hungry man. Headed home after tht for a rest, before heading out in e evening to join my frens. Had dinner @ tis restaurant called Piazza or sth like tht at e building beside PS. It was really expensive & not worth e money cauz e portion was really very small. While some of my frens watched Animatrix, since they booked it earlier, e rest headed down Orchard Rd & decided 2 go 2 Long John's 2 fill up e empty space in our stomachs. Guess u peeps must be thinking tht i'm a pig man. Hahaz, my mum even said tht i put on weight when i came home yesterday after booking out. Sat there & chit chat abt NS stuff till e other guys finish their movie. Chit chatted all e way till like 0145hrs before heading home 2 rest. Really miss my close frens man, it's been a long time since i've met all of them. Some of them had 2 spend time with their GFs & families, which kinda makes it more difficult for all of us 2 meet up. As u knw, u only like get less than 2 days of civilian life, so time really does fly. Enjoy e feeling of jus sitting down & chit chatting abt stuff. Hopefully, i'll be able 2 do it often.

Realised tht though my section is really a happening grp of pple, i find tht it's quite difficult for me 2 fit in. Guess my frequency is different frm them. Most of e time, i jus listen 2 wat they say instead of like joining in e conversation. Have a feeling tht they don't quite like me. Guess i'm borned 2 be like tht, not likeable. Don't feel good abt myself recently as well, like why am i such a weakling, why am i so stupid, why am i always e lousiest amongst my section & my frens, etc. Sometimes i try 2 think +ve, but somehow or rather, it will return 2 e -ve side. Haiz......dunno what to say abt myself man, always giving myself more problems then solving them myself. A few more hrs & i'll hve 2 change 2 my Smart 4 & book in. SiAnz. Jus hope tht this period of time will pass by quickly man, don't wanna feel depressed each time i book in nor do i want 2 feel tht way everytime i look across e sea frm my bunk. In e meantime, u peeps jus take lotsa care of urselves. Shall try 2 update u guys whenever i can. So ciAoz & CyAz!!!

HeyOz Peeps, i'm finally back. Feel kinda tired, but definitely happy & relieved 2 be out of Tekong & back home. But come 2 think abt it, it's not like i'll be out for a very long time. 24hrs later or mayb less than tht, i'll hve 2 report back already. Kinda makes me think tht time is really precious, such tht i hve 2 treasure each & every sec, a lesson learnt frm serving NS. Before NS, i was like lazy & stuff like tht, always taking my own sweet time 2 do things. Now, it's different, each & every sec counts both in & out of Tekong. Alright, think i shall tell u wat i hve been doing since Day 1 till now.

Day 1 was kind of an emotional day for me, especially after my parents & bro see me off at Pasir Ris Bus Interchange. When i was abt 2 take � bus & leave, i looked at my mum, not knowing wat 2 say. She wanted 2 say something, but she couldn't hold back her tears, hence cldn't really say anything 2 me. I really didnt wnt this to happen cauz i will be really affected by it, which was wat happened tht day. On � bus, i was really quiet since i didn't knw anybody & tears were like welling up in my eyes cauz � sight of my mum having tears in her eyes kept on recurring in my head. I was really emotional tht time, i have 2 say. Was suppose 2 have a fren with me, but he wore shorts which was not allowed in Tekong, so he cldn't board � same bus as me. Upon reaching there, it was all � giving out of stuff & sorting out of stuff as in administrative works. It was really testing our patience man cauz we waited frm morning till night, which finally i got 2 knw my company, platoon, section & bed no.

For � next few days, it was all � introducing of stuff in Tekong & settling down. Alright let me explain � terms 1st. In one Company, there's 4 Platoons. In 1 Platoon, there are 4 Sections. In 1 Section, there are 10-12 people. Get it? Hahaz... Initially, i thought my platoon was quite alright in terms of welfare, since we were always � first to do all � stuff as compared 2 othr platoons in � company. But as days pass by, i realise tht we were kind of � most xiong platoon in � company. Though, i hve been in a Uniform Unit & understand tht discipline is very important, it was more strict & mentally torturing as compared 2 Uniform Units. It's like one simple mistake u make can land u in super deep shit, like confinement, detention barrack (something like a jail sentence), etc. It's really mentally stressing cauz it implies tht u can't make a mistake at all. When this happens, you'll tend 2 be more blur than ever. So sometimes i do think tht i can't really take it, but i pushed myself on, by thinking of some happy things & stuff like tht. Sometimes i jus keep it in my heart & not say anything at all, and � end result is all � worrying. Guess i do worry 2 much at times. Trying my best 2 look at � bright side of life like some of my bunk mates.

Talking abt them, i think my bunk is � most cooperative one as well as � most noisy one. I hve 2 say tht it's kinda fun having such bunk mates, cauz they tend 2 help u forget how tough trainings can be. They are people who count down 2 booking out day, who talk abt � most stupid things & stuff like tht. They play or joke around whenever they hve time 2, they r � ones tht my Sergeants will like 2 pick on. Overall, i think they r quite nice, but at times i really don't like them cauz they can be quite selfish at times. Like if one person makes a mistake resulting in � Sergeant scolding � whole platoon, they r � ones who will call � person stupid or vulgarities & push all � blame on tht guy tht kind of thing. Sometimes i do get angry with those people, i hve 2 admit, but i seriously feel for them cauz it's not like tht want 2 do such mistakes on purpose, sometimes they really can't catch up tht kind of thing. Tht's when i seriously don't like them. Other than tht, it's still alright larhz, i have 2 say.

Something quite sad & worrying happen 2 my buddy though, he kind of like exploded saying he can't take this after speaking & breaking up with his GF on � phone. On tht day, he was really crying & depressed tht he had 2 talk 2 � Sergeants. I cldn't really sleep tht night cauz i had 2 look after him, 2 ensure tht he's alright & there's nothing wrong. After some counselling & stuff, he was feeling much better. Think a couple hve 2 persevere in order 2 pull through this period of time man.

No punishments were really given out yet, but i think it'll be coming soon. Now it was all � scolding & reprimanding only. Learning quite a few stuff though, handling, stripping & asembling of rifle which i jus got � day before. Throwing of grenade was taught theoretically yesterday, went 2 � range 2 look at how they shoot, etc. Though it's kinda like info explosion, like all � information hve 2 be in your head in such a short time, i realise tht there r many things tht i do not hve 2 do as compared 2 my frens. Think i'm quite lucky liaoz as compared 2 them. No SOC & field camp for me, only IPPT, � equivalent of NAPFA. Muscles are quite sore now since it's been a long time since i did any exercise. Think i'm becoming less & less fit. Hopefully with all these physical training, i'll be able 2 pass my IPPT, feeling kinda stressed & lousy abt myself right now.

Life is Tekong is not really bad come 2 think abt it, welfare seems 2 play quite a significant role in there. It's not like last time where they don't even bother abt stuff, as wat my uncle told me. NS is now much easier as compared 2 last time, i guess. � living conditions are not really very bad as well. Sorry for � long post, jus hve too many things 2 say. Hopefully i'll get 2 go out for a while with my frens before booking in later today. Think i finally understand how they felt when my frens were in NS � other time, SIANZ. Think i shall end here, really really tired, can't wait 2 sleep on my own bed. So cyAz peeps, CiAoz.....