.Unfilial.
I thought i would be happier at home, but apparently things hvn't been the same ever since i was back. My Aunt is tremendously disappointed & angry with both my Bro and i, and she hasn't been speaking to us. She's pretty furious actually, from wat i see but i really don't know wat to do abt it. It's quite sad to hear her say that she's disappointed with us, my mind was practically thinking abt it for the entire day and i'm sure i'll remember tis very vividly.
Though my Mum didn't say anything much, she's already disappointed in us but she took it more lightly as compared to my Aunt. My Mum talks to me which makes it easier for me, whereas my Aunt jus gives the very stern look which makes me more afraid than willing to approach her. I really don't know wat to say, but just that i'm not a filial son. So for those people out there who always think that i'm a nice guy, think again.
With the situation going on at home, i really wanna get out of there and move back to hall. A form of escapism, i guess. Sometimes, it is these situations at home that make me wanna live all on my own. The atmosphere at home is so tense and awkward, such that We don't communicate at all nowadays, which is really sad. I told myself that if i were to have a family when i grow up, i'll make sure that i communicate with my children.
I really am upset abt how things have been at home, yet i don't know wat to do, or is it more of me refusing to take the 1st step? I wonder. My Aunt will be taking a trip to Europe, so hopefully she'll be less agitated and i'd hve gathered more courage to apologise to her. Is it always not too late for regrets?
10:26 PM
Saturday, May 27, 2006
