Hate Blogger!!!
UuUuRrrRGggGggHhhHhhhHh!!!!!!!!!!Absolutely hate my blog's server. Think it's really very lousy, as wat most people tell me. � only reason tht i'm staying wth it till now, it's becauz i don't wanna lose my archives. Can't move it 2 a new server, otherwise i wld hve shifted my blog long time ago. Why i hate blogger? It's really simple you see. 1stly, sometimes it doesn't display your newest entries. There's a difference if you put "www" infront of your web address & if you don't. Don't understand wat's � difference. 2ndly, after typing like a lengthy entry, it doesn't get posted up though you pressed � "Post & Publish" button. Tis means tht all your efforts in typing tht lengthy entry, hve been wasted. I remember there was once where � server was so screwed up, tht i had 2 type 3 times in order 2 finally get it up. Sometimes becauz of tis, i don't even feel like updating at all. 3rdly (tis happens 2 me recently), after making changes 2 my template (e.g. updating my calendar) & typing an entry, instead of displaying � changes i've made when i press � " Post & Publish" button, some of � info at � side of my blog gets deleted away for no reason. I did save � changes made 2 my template, before publishing it together wth my latest entry. Fortunately, i did hve some backup, in � sense of HTML-Kit where i normally edit my template 1st b4 actually publishing it. Otherwise, i wld lose all my info & hve 2 retype everything again which is very troublesome indeed. BLOGGER SUX TO THE CORE MAN!!!

Ehz, will be doing Guard Duty tmr, sad 2 say. But it's voluntary cauz one of my camp-mates is � Arms Escort for tmr's CO Parade & he has 2 attend it, h/e it clashes wth his Guard Duty tmr. He was frantically searching for someone 2 exchange wth him, he did approached me initially but i rejected him cauz i jus did it not too long ago. H/e, after some thoughts & consideration, i decided 2 change wth him. One reason was becauz � Guard Commander for � original day tht i am suppose 2 perform duty on, is some sort of a crazy guy. Heard alot of stories abt him frm my seniors in camp as well as my camp-mates who did Guard Duty wth him. Another reason is tht my nxt duty will be at � end of � month, which means tht i won't need 2 do Guard Duty for ard 3 wks, unless it's so unlucky tht i'm � standby guard for one of tht 3 wks. Being on standby means tht if there's a shortage of guards for tht day due 2 somebody frm your company missing in action or unable 2 turn up for Guard Duty, you'll hve 2 replace tht someone. Pretty unfair, but tht's � case, life's always unfair so nothing much i can do abt it. HaizZzz.....

PheWww......
IPPT was cancelled 2dy due 2 � rain. In a way i think it's a lucky thing since i hvn't fully recovered frm my ankle injury. Hopefully � nxt scheduled date will be at sometime when my ankle has fully recovered. In tht case, i shld be able 2 at least get a Silver & earn 100 bucks for it.

Did practically nothing 2dy, since there weren't any wpns coming in. But due 2 tht, i had alot of rubbish work 2 do. Guess they jus don't like people 2 sit there & do nothing. No matter wat, they'll still find sth for you to do. Am praying hard tht i won't need 2 do Guard Duty tmr. If i really hve 2, then i guess i'm jus stupid 2 hve accepted � offer 2 xchange my duty wth somebody tht i don't even knw & 2 put my trust in tht person. I guess it's wat you call "Zi Zuo Zi Shou". Am really tired, but i hve no idea why. Will be turning in soon...

BuRp!
Oops! Sorry abt tht, guess i ate too much. Met up wth my fellow Interactors & we had such a great time man. It's been eons (dunno whether i've used � term correctly here)since we've met up & everybody's still � same, except Shuqin who's � only one wth driving license amgst us, Derrick who slimmed down alot eversince he enlisted, Yunwei who's got herself a new boyfriend & Justin who's got himself a little bit more tanned. Other than tht, Jiayi is still as crappy as ever & he has become a "darkie", while Diana is still herself, a little bit "Ah Lian-ish" & keeps complaining tht she's fat w/o taking any action, oops!

Anyway we met up for Dim Sum Buffet at a Chinese Restaurant at Harbourfront, which was pretty nice & affordable. We ordered practically everything tht was on � list & we all ate till we were extremely full. I must say tht i was really very impressed wth Yunwei, since she ate � most amongst us, even beating us guys. Tht's so shameful, haha. After tht, we took a ride on Shuqin's car to Esplanade for a drink, except for Yunwei & her boyfriend, since � car cld only take 5 people. Must say tht she drives really well man, so envious. Wonder when it'll be my turn, hmmm....

Anyway we went 2 The Chocolate Bar, which serves mainly drinks tht are made frm chocolate. I ordered � Orange Chocolate, which was pretty nice except for � fact tht i can't really hve too much of it cauz it's too chocolatey. Had 2 take sips of water 2 neutralise � effect. Mine was still alright as compared 2 � rest, cauz � one tht Shuqin, Jiayi & Justin ordered was too sweet after a few sips of it. Since � guys had 2 go back early 2 pack their stuff 2 prepare 2 book in, we went our separate ways after tht. All in all, i really had a wonderful time chit-chatting & laughing. It's been a long time since i've had such fun man. It jus reminds me of those times in JC where we wld stay back late in sch 2 prepare for fun raising projects. We really bonded & did everything together as a grp man. Those were really � days...

� only difference is tht we've all grown up, i suppose. Something tht i've realise during our gathering. � guys are in NS, while � gals are in university. Everything jus seems 2 pass by so quickly. I feel like an adult while i was out wth them, esp when we were heading 2 � carpark 2 Shuqin's car. Last time, wherever we go, it's public transport. Now, you can even get a ride frm your fren if he/she drives. It's jus so different, � feeling's different as well. To all of them, i jus wanna say tht i really had a great time & i'm looking forward 2 our next gathering, wth Shuhui around tht is (she cldn't make it tis time round). Hopefully, we are still able 2 keep in contact as we grow older. All � best & Carpe Diam! (remember � word tht we used during � speech, � one where i had 2 take over Diana?)

Lousy Organisation
Tht's wat i think of SAF. Firstly, why can't they hve an e-Mart per camp? Wldn't it be easier for us NS guys 2 buy stuff, during their working hrs, instd of making us go all � way 2 another camp. This is really very time-consuming since we may only buy a few things tht we need & becauz of tht, we hve 2 travel all � way 2 another camp jus 2 get them. Like for my case, i need 2 get a beret only & i hve 2 walk all � way into Nee Soon Camp 2 � e-Mart tht is located at � Combat Engineer side. It's really very troublesome since it's quite a long distance 2 travel by foot & tht � side gate tht allows me 2 walk a shorter distance 2 Nee Soon Camp, is usually closed except during lunch time.

This leads on to � 2nd thing, which i seriously don't understand why. � e-Mart only opens once a week & everytime it's open, there will be a super duper long queue. Why can't they jus open everyday, so tht we won't be forced 2 buy our things only on tht day & it will definitely help in spreading out � crowd. They don't hve 2 open � entire day though, can open for only half-day or sth like tht, which i can predict wld be much better.

� 3rd thing is � timings for reporting sick. In army, there's a certain timing for different grps of pple 2 report sick, unless it's an emergency case. So if you are there early, you'll hve 2 wait for � correct time before you can go see � MO. Isn't tht like restricting you frm seeing � MO? In addition 2 tht, � system is pretty inefficient in � sense tht � waiting time is simply too long. It takes abt 1-2 hrs odd for � entire process 2 end, frm taking your temperature b4 heading in2 � Medical Centre, all � way till you get your medicine. I guess it's even longer than going 2 � polyclinic. Guess sometimes SAF is pretty f***ed up afterall.

Will be doing Guard Duty tmr, xchanged wth tis guy who called � office tis afternoon 2 look for me. Being � kind guy, i did change wth him thinking tht i won't need 2 do � original duty on nxt Tues. H/e, my senior told me tht i shldn't hve changed it since i don't knw who � person was & if he doesn't turn up nxt Tues, i'll be � one who's gonna do � duty afterall. Which means tht i'm at � losing end. Wanted 2 try to call his camp's office 2 contact him, but � clerks were busy doing their stuff so didn't want 2 bother them. So now all i can do is 2 pray hard tht � person doesn't play me out. Otherwise, i wld be doing 3 Guard Duties for tis mth.

Oh yah, forgot 2 tell you peeps tht actually � Medical Centre isn't tht inefficient afterall. My NSC Medical Appt has been booked already, which i'm quite surprised, thought � processing time take some time. Really wanna go get � free medicine asap, cauz i really can't stand myself already. It's really getting frm bad 2 worst. Hopefully, i'm able 2 get a little bit better b4 my Interact Gathering on Sun comes. I knw it sounds like i'm too self-conscious, but i really think wth my current condition i rather hide at home man. Sometimes, when frens of mine start complaining abt their pimples in front of me, which is nothing as compared 2 mine, i get rather paranoid & irritated by it though i keep telling them tht i'm immuned 2 such comments. But still i'm a human afterall & all humans hve feelings, ya knw. I mean it's like trying 2 say tht they hate pimples & they rather not knw any peeps who hve pimples or shld i say discriminate agst pple who hve serious acne problems. At least tht's wat i think or mayb i've jus read too much in2 � meaning behind tht. But becauz of tht, i feel so demoralized at times tht i don't even feel like going out wth them, since i'm � ugly one in there. Haiz......guess i'm jus borned like tht, wth all � bad traits & features, can't blame anyone abt it except myself i guess. Dunno why i'm getting teary all of a sudden, guess i jus hate being myself.

Hopeless & Pathetic at...
Running. Yupz, i self declare tht i'm really super duper lousy at tht. My leg hasn't fully recovered & yet i'm running already? Well, didn't want 2 initially cauz i still hve IPPT on � coming Mon & i wanted 2 let my left ankle rest as much as possible. Told � officer who was taking us 4 � run yesterday, but he told me 2 tell him today instd. By � looks of it, he sounded as if i was trying 2 find means & ways 2 excuse myself frm � run today, or in other words "Chao Keng". In order 2 prove tht i wasn't, i risked � possibility of worsening my injury & went 4 � run instd. Sounds like i'm sacrificing alot right? Hahaz. Luckily, my leg was still alright after � run, though i was running pretty slowly. Had 2 slow down abit since i didn't want 2 aggravate it. Nevertheless, i'm still pretty proud of myself for finishing � entire route w/o stopping at all. Wanted 2 give up halfway, honestly speaking.

Anyway think i did aggravate my injury a little afterall. Will hve 2 massage it later on, i suppose. Reported sick 2dy, to get a referral letter frm � MO, 2 allow me 2 visit NSC for my acne problem. Got a lift frm my section's I/C tht's why i decided 2 do it today, otherwise i think i wld drag it even further since i'm very lazy. � MO didn't really give me a referral letter, he jus told me verbally tht he wld do it & asked me 2 fill up a form. Hopefully, NSC will call me up & ask me 2 go down for my appointment. If not, i'll hve 2 report sick again, which wld be very troublesome.

Expenses on the rise
Realise tht i've been spending too much every weekends. Most of my expenses are on food or movies, since i don't really buy anything. It's like every weekend, i'll spend at least 15 bucks on food alone. Then adding � movie ticks, it'll be a total of $20++. It's like my $350 pay is barely enough 2 last me for 1 mth, if my expenses keep on rising each mth. H/e, i think i'm still able 2 control � amt i spend as compared 2 those pple who goes clubbing/pubbing, i guess. Really need 2 save up some money in preparation for my varsity life since i won't be earning any salary, unless i'm giving tuition or working part time. But dunno whether i hve time for tht or not, so it's better to save up some money, don't wanna take any money frm my parents when i'm at tht age for my allowances.

Anyway, hve been doing a little shopping wth my frens for tis weekend & hve a sudden urge of buying a T-shirt frm FourSkin & a bag frm Quiksilver � shirt costs $35 while � bag costs $89. Am still considering it carefully, since i've 2 watch my expenses & try 2 prevent it frm rising each mth. � bag is sth tht i don't hve as in those type of sports bag, but also sth tht i don't really need for now since i'm in NS. But i like it alot, tht's for sure. Initially, when i saw it, i was pretty much in love wth it, but i found it too expensive & not really in need of it. Hence i didn't buy it during tht time. After a few mths, i thought � season was over since i cldn't really see it hanging ard anymore. But on Sat, when i went 2 � Quicksilver store @ new Paragon Extension, i saw it again & had � sudden urge of buying it immediately. H/e, i didn't cauz i wanted 2 ask more pple for their opinion on whether it's nice & worth buying or not. And i kind of regretted doing tht cauz today, when i brought them there, they were like telling me tht it looks kinda girlish. Tis kind of like smash my thought of buying it. I really really like it alot & if i'm not wrong, there's only 2 left on � shelves, which mayb � only ones left. Well, shall wait till nxt wk when i'll be meeting up wth my Interact frens & get their opinions. Or shld i jus go ahead & buy it, ignoring wat my frens said abt it? ArGh, really really like it alot, like � Mambo bag tht i bought � other time, which i din't regret buying it at all though it's pretty expensive.

As 4 � shirt, i shall wait a little longer & see whether i still like it as much as before or whether my liking of it has already died down by then, hehe. Didn't do anything much during tis weekend, jus went out & walked ard town. Sianz, my weekends always seem 2 end so fast. Will hve 2 go back 2 work tmr, think i'll hve � Monday Blues again. Ever since i got posted here, i jus absolutely hate Mondays. It's a day when you feel really restless & don't feel like doing anything at all. Hopefully tmr will be a busy day, at least it will make time seem 2 pass by faster.

Tired legs
Been standing for almost � entire day, though i did sit down once in a while. Sometimes, even when i'm heading home, i hve 2 stand for � entire journey back since � bus is normally crowded during tht time. Besides having flat feet, � left ankle injury is causing my legs 2 get tired much more easier as compared 2 last time. Wonder how long it will take b4 my ankle fully recovers, cauz will be having an IPPT Test as written on my events list. Dunno whether i'll be able 2 take � test by then.

My mind & body is pretty tired, but i don't feel like sleeping tht early cauz i don't wnt my weekends 2 pass by too quickly. However, i don't hve anything much 2 do, since there's nothing interesting 2 watch on TV. Actually, i cld hve watched � Bachelor cauz i recorded it, but think i'll lsave it for tmr. Oh, called in 2 Perfect 10 tis morning, after wks of trying. It's getting more & more difficult each day cauz of � rising popularity of their show, i guess. I realise tht if you don't plan 2 call them, and you jus try your luck 2 call thru, it may hve 2 higher chance of getting thru. But if you are very determined 2 call thru, it wld be more difficult instd.

My skin is really getting really bad. Don't think i'll mention � details to you peeps, cauz it might lead 2 mass puking. Am pretty disgusted by it, which i can only put � blame 2 myself & no one else. Sometimes i think i rather hide at home then go out wth my frens, though i usually ain't like tht. Dunno why i've become tht self-conscious or mayb i'm like tht all � while jus tht i don't usually express it. SiGnZzZz, tis jus makes me lose all my morale. Still waiting for my supper right now, but i can't keep my eyes open. Shld i cancel � order?

One more day...
Apparently, i'm still entitled 2 claim my long weekend tis mth, since i got my MC frm a polyclinic which is under � Govt. Was told tht if you reported sick outside & you visited a private clinic instd of a Govt clinic, your long weekend end tht you are entitled will be burnt. So, i'm quite lucky in � sense tht i didn't visit a private clinic. Honestly, if i were 2 report sick outside again, i wld rather go 2 � polyclinic since it's free. � only thing tht i'll hve 2 bare wld be � waiting time though. Nevertheless, it will help save quite a sum of money, since visiting private clinics is pretty expensive. So it's one more day 2 � long weekend. HuRrAy!!!

Guard Duty was sucky tis time round cauz i had to prowl twice, once at 2100hrs & � othr in � wee hours of � dy. For my previous Guard Duties, i didn't even had 2 prowl at all, except for once but tht was like 2000hrs which was still okay. Dunno why � Guard Commander was tht "Garang" (on � ball), was expecting tht he wld be more slack since he was frm my side, as in Armament Small Arms Platoon (there are other platoons in my camp which repair other stuff like vehicles or howitzers). Sometimes i jus don't see any reason in doing Guard Duties if none of us really do prowl at all. It kinda defeats � purpose of guarding � camp. In addition, 24hrs Guard Duties are a torture man & i'm gonna do it quite frequently for my entire NS life. Shitified!!! Sometimes i really wonder how we are gonna protect our own country if we hve soldiers like us, so slack & hve so many things 2 complain, hahaz. Oh well, watever.

My hands are rougher as � days go by. Today, had 2 use a piece of rough cloth 2 scrap off some dried up black glue (Wat we call as loctite, sth like super glue, but even powerful & more suitable for metal materials. There are many other types & colours for different uses.) off my hand. Imagine you gals hve your hands on tis, you peeps will sure complain abt it man. Well, i'm still okay wth it, since i'm a guy. Besides my hand, i think my skin is getting frm bad 2 worst as each day goes by. � environment tht i'm working in is not really tht conducive for my skin. Kinda worried abt it cauz it never seems 2 stop. Think i'll hve 2 go report sick inside & see � MO 2 get a recommendation letter to go to National Skin Care Centre (NSC) for some treatment. Why do i hve 2 go thru all tht trouble 2 do tht, it's becauz it might help me save money. Heard frm my fren, who's Mum is a regular in � army, tht SAF might help you subsidise a little of your fees, tht is provided tht � MO recommends tht you go there for treatment. I think tis subsidy will help alot since visiting NSC is quite expensive frm my previous experience. Hopefully it's true, otherwise i really dunno wat 2 do liaoz cauz i really don't wanna spend so much of my parent's money on treatment alone. � Bachelor is coming up nxt & think i'll be heading for � TV. Am pretty tired though, so guess i'll head 2 bed after tht, or mayb i'll fall aslp halfway during � show, who knws.

Paranoid
Tht's wat i am for now. Jus being paranoid over these stupid & idiotic issues tht i've come up wth. Today wasn't as bad as wat i thought it wld be, everything went on pretty smoothly. Except tht i forgot 2 wait at � Medical Centre for my status slip [� Medical Officer (MO) told me tht i wld be excused frm running or any vigorous exercise tht has got 2 do wth � leg, sth like tht] cauz � MO didn't tell me 2 wait or anything. Besides tht, i had 2 walk back by myself, which was a pretty long walk since � Medical Centre was located right inside of Nee Soon Camp & � side gate, which we normally use during lunch time 2 get 2 � cookhouse at Nee Soon Camp (a much shorter route), wasn't open. Was practically limping all � way & felt some pain on my injured ankle, after walking some distance. Luckily, � injury didn't worsen otherwise i wld hve 2 go see � doctor again.

Will be doing Guard Duty tmr, dunno whether i'm able 2 stand for 2 hrs during each of my 2 shifts tht i'll be doing. Luckily, my Aunt has a Ankle Brace, you knw those elastic rubber thingy tht is really tight, 2 help me hold my injured part in place so tht i won't worsen it's condition. Praying tht it wld really help. Oh forgot 2 mention tht i might not be able 2 get a long weekend per mth becauz my stupid 2IC wanted us 2 earn it instd of giving it 2 us willingly. He came up wth � idea of having a competition 2 determine which section (a total of 4)gets 2 go for their long weekend. Hence, if your section keeps on losing out 2 other sections, you won't be able 2 get any long weekend at all, simple as tht. Jus when i thought tht being in tis camp was not as bad, tis competition came alg & ruined my opinion of it.

Fortunately, i'm might still able 2 get a long weekend tis mth since � 2IC decided tht � real competition wld start nxt mth onwards. Why i say might it's becauz i heard frm my campmates tht those tht reported sick outside during � mth won't hve a chance 2 claim their long weekend for tht mth. H/e, another campmate was like saying it's only applicable 2 those pple who visited private clinics. Oh well, we'll see abt tht then. I realise tht for � previous few entries, i nvr finish wat i wanted 2 say or talk abt & i always say tht i'll continue in � nxt entry but i nvr did. Ermz, looks like i'm jus too lazy, hehe. Shall end here now, cyaz peeps!

Afraid & Pressurised
My MC ends 2dy & will be heading back 2 camp tmr. Still thinking abt how i'm gonna do it since my ankle is being bandaged up. I knw camps don't usually allow slippers 2 be worn in2 camp, sandals are still acceptable. H/e, i don't hve any sandals & i don't really dare 2 wear those pair of slippers 2 camp. Thinking of either borrowing it frm my Bro's fren or my campmate. Quite at a loss as 2 wat to do, since i don't wanna break any rules or get scolded for tis type of minor thing.

Am feeling pressurised right now for no particular reason. I really dunno why i feel like tht, but it's been like tht after i was woken up by a phone call earlier on. � clerk frm my camp called up wanting 2 tell me tht i'll be doing Guard Duty tmr, since some of my campmates are being attached out of camp, which means tht we'll hve 2 help them do their Guard Duties. But i told him tht i can't do it since my ankle hasn't fully recovered & � bandage has 2 be on till tmr. So tht was settled & my Guard Duty will still be on Wed + some additional ones nxt wk i presume. Then he also told me tht i had 2 endorse my MC by the Medical Officer in Nee Soon Camp, since it was more than 3 days. He told me tht i wld hve 2 report sick in camp tmr in order 2 do it. So you peeps see, it's really troublesome 2 report sick at times. You'll hve 2 do tis & tht & if you don't you'll get in2 serious deep shit etc. Tht's why i try 2 keep a clean record by not reporting sick at all, unless i really hve to, like for tis time rd. But i nvr expected my 1st time reporting sick will cause so much trouble. SiGnZzz.....

Mayb it's partly becauz of tht, tht i'm feeling pressurised right now. I knw it sounds weird but i seriously hve no idea why i'm feeling like tht. Mayb it's becauz heading back 2 camp not knwing wat i've missed out, whether there'll be loads of stuff 2 do & whether reporting sick in camp again will make � officers think tht i'm faking my injury tht kinda thing etc, tht makes me feel tht way. I guess it's me worrying too much, but i'm like tht. I really don't like tis feeling but sometimes NS does really pressurise me alot. I guess i'm � only one who's feeling tis way. Really at a loss right now, somebody pls help me!!!!!

New Layout
So wat do u peeps think abt tis new layout? It's definitely not designed by me, jus made a few changes 2 � existing skin tht i d/l frm � net. There is an additional change tht i wld like 2 make, but i don't think i knw how 2. Tht is 2 make my archives hve alternating colours like � links under � heading "friends". Anyone has any idea how 2 do it? Anyway decided 2 change my layout cauz � previous one looks a little childish & dull, wth no images at all. Tis one looks more mature & refreshing, more suitable i guess for someone who's maturing, hahaz. Sianz, my ankle hasn't really recovered yet. Still hve difficulty in walking. Am currently limping as i walk frm place 2 place at home. Dunno whether i'll be able 2 head back 2 camp on Tues or not. Still hve Guard Duty on Wed lehz, haiz. Dunno wat i shld do now. Hopefully, my visit 2 � Sin Seh later on will allow me 2 walk properly. Anyway, do hve loads of things 2 post, but not gonna do it during tis entry cauz i'm pretty tired after spending much time on changing � layout. Shall do it on � nxt entry then. CiAoz...

OouUuCcCHhHh!!!
Sprained or shld i say twisted my left ankle while i was running back, during my IPPT Training yesterday. It wasn't really painful initially, until after lunch where the pain really started 2 come in. I had great difficulty walkin & to add on 2 it, it was raining pretty heavily as i was abt the head home. Had no choice but 2 slowly walked or shld i say limped 2 the bus stop. Everytime i took a step on my left feet, it hurt like hell. Hence, i had to depend entirely on my left feet for support, which was very strenuous. Luckily, 2 of my camp-mates accompanied in the rain, otherwise i wld feel very embarrassed, limping in the rain alone.

Went to the polyclinic to see the doctor today, since it was free for NS men. It was a pretty long wait as usual, due to the large crowd. I hve 2 admit tht it is very cheap 2 visit the polyclinic as compared 2 visiting private clinics. H/e the waiting time is simply too long. There are so many elderlys there who visit it due 2 it's cheap consultation fees. By the time it's your turn, you wld feel even more sick than before, at least tht's wat i think. Sometimes i wonder how they are able 2 provide such services at such low prices. I mean the medicine do cost sth, don't they? Anyway, the doctor gave me 4 days MC & prescribed me pain-killers + a cream 2 apply on the injured part. Not bad for my 1st time reporting sick ever since i enlisted into NS huh? Hehez. Honestly speaking, i think tht visitng Chinese Sin-Sehs wld be a better choice, for sprains or fractures etc. The only reasons tht i visited the polyclinic was becauz it was free & i had 2 produce MC 2 cover up for my absence frm camp. Otherwise, i wld hve visited the Sin-Seh immediately, instd of wasting my time queueing up in the polyclinic. Besides, the doctor didn't even do anything to my feet, jus took an X-Ray & helped me bandaged it up w/o applying any medicine to it at all, which proves tht fact the visiting Chinese Sin-Sehs wld be a better choice. Mayb tht's why the fees are so cheap.

Headed to the Chinese Sin-Seh in the late afternoon, which i was very scared, since i heard tht it wld be pretty painful cauz they twist your injured part back to it's original position, tht kinda thing. Was perspiring profusely while i was there, partly becauz of the hot weather & me being a little frightened. Initially i thought tht there wld be pple screaming or shouting becauz of the pain, but 2 my surprise, there wasn't any at all. Mayb the pple were able 2 withstand the pain, since most of them were older than me, i thought. When it was finally my turn, i was thinking of how embarrassing it wld be if i was the only one who shouted. Nevertheless, i headed into the room & was so nervous tht the Sin-Seh had 2 ask me 2 relax so tht he cld do wat he's planning to do. In a flash of a moment, he did his thing & i didn't even felt a single thing. Tht relieved me a little. He did it a 2nd time, wth a crack sound tis time round, but i didn't feel a single pain at all. A third time & it was done. All my worries were for nothing. He applied some medicine & wrapped my leg up. Now, i still hve difficulty walking ard but it feels slightly better. Hve 2 go back for another visit on Sun though. Shall post more stuff later on cauz i'm not really comfortable typing now. My body's all sticky & stuff, which makes me feel very un comfortable & dirty. Need to take a shower, which i think wld be very troublesome since i won't be able 2 wet my left ankle at all. HaizZz....

I'm so lucky
Indeed i was pretty lucky on my 1st day of being the COS. As i was heading towards the Orderly Rm, passing by the workshop, i saw the lights on wth the shutters all up & the gates opened. Was wondering who was so kind 2 help me open up the workshop. Found out frm the guy who helped me open up the workshop tht actually he thought he was the COS 4 the day, tht was why he opened up the workshop. So, in a way i'm pretty lucky 2 hve somebody 2 help me do part of my work. Hence, all i did was 2 turn on the compressor, switch on all the fans as well as 2 open up all the windows. The other lucky part was tht i didn't hve 2 stay till a late time b4 i cld close up the workshop. Sometimes, if certain officers hve work 2 do & has 2 stay back in the office, i'll hve 2 wait till they finish up their work b4 i can lock up the workshop. And since tht day, the officers weren't ard, i got 2 lock it up pretty early. Honestly speaking, being COS wasn't as tough as wat i thought it wld be. Jus tht you hve 2 wake up earlier & go home late, and tht you hve 2 stay in the workshop most of the times 2 look after it whn the rest of them aren't around. So it's not too bad.

One of my campmates didn't turn up for work 2day & he didn't inform anyone abt it. Nobody knew wat happened 2 him & they were looking high & low for him. In the end, my section i/c, since he was frm my section, had 2 go all the way 2 his house 2 find out wat happened. When they reached there, they found him sleeping cauz he was sick, he's even got an MC 2 prove it. H/e, the reason he didn't call back was becauz his house line was being cut off. This was not really a gd reason since there are public phones around. SAF takes these kind of things seriously & it's not 2 be messed wth. If you don't report back 2 camp for any reason, it's a must 2 inform them abt your whereabts. If you didn't, they may take it tht you are running away frm NS, which can be a chargeable offence. Afterall, we are bounded by regimental rules, therefore the strictness. Tht's why i say tht sometimes NS puts too much pressure on us. If we commit a minor mistake, it may lead 2 a major punishment. Heard tht the guy will be dealt wth severely, but not as severe as being charged wth AWOL (Absensce Without Official Leave).

Forgot 2 mention abt my new section, the most "shiong" or tough section out of a total of 3 sections. Why i say it's "shiong", it's becauz one of the 3 types of wpns tht i'm suppose 2 deal wth, is the most troublesome wpn 2 repair. Sometimes it can take the entire day to work on a certain part, wat i heard frm the seniors of my section. Am trying my best 2 learn as much as i can for now, but don't think i'll be able 2 fully repair a wpn by myself after learning everything tht i'm suppose 2 learn. Don't hve confidence in myself at all. Sometimes, the worrying of committing a mistake makes me lose confidence in myself as well as feeling lousy abr myself. SiGnZzZzZz.....Am very tired right now, after waking up early for 2 dys in a row. Gotta go & slp now, Gd NitEzZzZz.......

More responsibilities
Feeling a little nervous right now, since it's my 1st time doing COS duties tomorrow. There'll be some big shots coming tomorrow as well, which makes me all � more nervous. Dunno whether i'll remember everything tht i'm supposed to do. Luckily, my fren offered 2 accompany me 2 try out tomorrow, since he'll be doing it on Tues. Hopefully, nothing goes wrong. Besides tis, am kinda worried abt whether i'll be able 2 perform my job as a technician well. I knw it's only in � beginning & i'm jus worrying too much, but still it's not an easy task i must say. I'm dealing wth sth tht can kill someone, if i don't perform my job well. Tis pressurises me alot & sometimes i really don't feel like dealing wth such things at all. NS sometimes puts too much pressure on us, it's like a little small thing can lead to a very big end result. Really don't like tis feeling at all.

Didn't go out tis whole weekend except for Fri night, which i had dinner wth my frens. Walked around town tht night, chit-chatting most of � time. Ate quite alot tht night as well, had Long John's Silver initially, which wasn't filling. Later on, ate another bowl of Beef Noodles to fill up � rest of � empty space in my stomach, hehe. My com's back 2 normal, jus tht 2 out of 4 of my speakers aren't working. Guess it's due 2 � lack of sound card 2 support it. � internet connection is still � same, not up to it's maximum speed. Another thing i'm glad abt is tht i won't need 2 d.l those mp3s tht i hve on old computer. Instd, i can use � Thumb Drive tht my Bro brought back 2 transfer � files. It is sth like an external drive, a mobile one. � only troublesome thing is tht i'll hve 2 move frm my parent's rm 2 my Bro's rm, to & fro since it can only store 64 MB worth of disk space. And since i hve over 400 mp3s, it'll take quite a few trips for me 2 completely transfer all my mp3s frm � old computer.

Oh forgot 2 mention tht i'll be entitled 2 one long weekend each mth, beginning frm tis mth. Tis is sth tht i've been longing for since i heard tht normally units will hve at least one long weekend per mth. While i was out tis afternoon, saw a few Tekong Recruits tht were abt 2 book in, i suppose. It reminded me of my BMT days, where i hve 2 get out of my house feeling depressed, carrying tht ugly field pack & wearing tht ugly jockey cap. Those days were days of mental torture for me man, esp � time whn i need 2 leave � house & whn i'm on � ferry. These were � times tht i hate � most, out of my entire BMT days. Those were � days.......

Worries, worries & more worries
Finally, my course has ended & it's into � nxt phase of NS life. Everytime, b4 i enter in2 � nxt phase, i wld recollect on my previous phases of NS life. Knw tht i've said tis many times, but time really does fly, seems only yesterday tht i enlisted in NS. (I knw, i knw, been saying tht for ages, so jus bare wth me will ya? Hahaz) Recollecting on those times cld be pretty emotional cauz it reminds you of wat you hve been thru, & it brings back memories of all � gd & bad times. Today was pretty much like tht, parting wth some of � gd frens tht i've made during tis entire course, which i didn't expect 2 hve. I knw i'm exaggerating a lil, since it's not like i won't be seeing them ever again. Actually, i'm not tht affected as compared 2 those tht are being posted 2 other units alone. These pple wld hve 2 be more independent, in � sense tht they may hve 2 depend on themselves wth nobody 2 help them at all, & wld hve 2 adapt 2 a new environment again. It sounds pretty scary, hence if i were posted 2 a unit alone, i think i'll be lost & � worst thing is if there's nobody 2 guide you, you'll feel helpless.

Anyway, went back 2 OETI to return all my stuff as well as 2 hve a simple graduation ceremony. Waited 4 � entire day till abt 1530hrs, b4 � ceremony finally begun. (NS is all abt waiting, trying to test your patience i must say.) Received a certificate, which i was pretty shocked since my name was � 1st one 2 be called upon. Headed home after tht & am now downloading Mp3s. Apparently, � sound system is back 2 normal & logging on 2 � net doesnt affect it anymore. � only problem i'm facing now is � broadband speed, it's not up 2 it's maximum. My Bro hvn't called SingTel yet, as expected & i've got no time 2 since i'll be at camp during their office hours. Oh well, will leave it 2 my Bro 2 settle it, which cld take pretty long, hahaz.

Tomorrow will be a new beginning for me, wearing civillian clothings 2 camp instd of uniform, but i'm not at all excited abt it. Instd, i'm more worried so as 2 speak. � reason is, frm wat i observe, i don't think � pple there like us at all, esp � officers. Mayb it's becauz of � trouble we've brought 2 them while we are attached there. If tht's � case, doesn't it mean tht they might jus leave us 2 die & rot there? H/e pple will be ORDing frm there, which means tht we will be taking over, which in turns mean tht wat i've said is not true cauz they will need 2 train us in order 2 take over. Nevertheless, i still hve a bad feeling abt staying over there. Besides, heard tht there's quite alot of politics there (seems like there's politics everywhere, SiGnZzZzzZz.....) & there are pple there tht i don't really like. So, staying in base doesn't seem 2 be tht gd as i've expect it 2 be. Now, i wld rather go 2 a unit where some of my gd frens who were being posted out, who needs help becauz there's not enough manpower etc. But don't think it's possible, unless there's seriously some cock-ups in � postings & more will be posted 2 other units later on. (Jus for your info, another 2 pple who were previously posted 2 base , were re-posted 2 combat units today. So mayb there's hope afterall.)

Damn unlucky 2 be � 1st one 2 be � COS, someone who has 2 come early 2 open � workshop & staying back later than other pple 2 close it. Wonder whether there'll be anyone who wld teach me wat 2 do or like wat i've said, jus leave me 2 die & rot there. Kinda nervous abt it since i knw nuts abt � things i wld hve 2 do. Oh well, sooner or later i wld hve 2 face it so i'll jus hve 2 take it tht i'm doing it earlier than � rest. Am watching The Bachelor: Aaron & Helene Tell All, & guess tis show isn't really a gd way 2 find true love, yar? Quite saddening 2 see a relationship being broken up like tht, esp 2 see how upset Helene was. Am wondering whether women are always � ones who suffer � most when a relationship ends. Mayb there are some men who suffers too but i guess women wld be more affected when it comes 2 tis. Was chatting wth a fren on my way home earlier on, abt relationships & kinda realise � difficulty 2 juggle it. I hvn't experience it b4, hence i don't really knw how it's like, but i knw tht it's not easy. Hence as frens of those tht hve BFs/GFs, we'll hve 2 be a little more understanding, in order 2 make things less difficult for your frens. Dunno whether wat i say makes sense, since i don't really knw wat i wanted 2 say, hahaz. Guess tht's abt it for 2 day, oops, hvn't picked up frm where i left off � othr time. Some othr day perhaps, or mayb there's no need 2 talk abt it already, hahaz. NiTez...

FINALLY
YES, I'VE FINALLY GOT A NEW COMPUTER!!!!! It's like a dream come true for me man, after years of waiting. Can't describe 2 you how excited i am man. I know it sounds a little bit ridiculous, but it's really � case. Imagine using a computer wth only Pentium 2 & 2 GB of Hard Disk space at tis point in time? I think it can be considered an antique already, hahaz. Anyway my Bro went 2 buy all � stuff tis afternoon, which i thought he wldn't cauz i heard frm my Mum tht he's got a cash shortage. Heard tht he had 2 borrow money frm my Mum. Nevertheless, � total sum was abt $1200++, which i think was pretty expensive. H/e, it's all � latest specifications, as wat my Bro told me, so mayb it's worthwhile. Can't really say whether it's worthwhile or not yet, since i've 2 use it 1st in order 2 find out. Currently, it's definitely faster in terms of loading programmes & installing them. A new set of speakers also allows me 2 listen 2 Mp3s in a much clearer & louder way. Hvn't bought LCD screen yet though, waiting for � warehouse sale where they'll sell it at a much cheaper price. H/e, sth's wrong wth my Internet Connection though, it's not as fast as it's supposed 2 be. Think i'll be calling SingTel up & hopefully they'll be able 2 solve my problem. Besides tht, i've still got alot of configurations 2 settle as well as Mp3s 2 download. Shall update abt Guard Duty as well as 2 pick up frm where i left off frm � previous entry another day perhaps. Jus can't wait 2 configure my computer stuff. NitezZz......