I'm officially BOTAK now. Decided 2 shave botak 1st b4 enlisting, since my enlistment takes place in � morning, which means tht i can only get 2 bath at � end of e day. I seriously think i made � right decision cauz after coming out of e barber, my head was itching like hell. Imagine wat wld happen if i were 2 cut my hair over at Tekong. Oh � barber was really funny, initially he cut my hair into Armani hairstyle, which i was totally shocked. My bro told me tht if i were 2 tell them tht i will be enlisting into � Army, they wld knw how 2 cut my hair. Apparently, this barber didn't know & i must tell him 2 cut shorter in order 2 get � required hairstyle. I must say i look very bad without hair. My head's too squarish to be botak. My Mum & Bro was like laughing at me saying tht i look terrible. Oh well, guess i've always been & will always be ugly for my entire life.

Went 2 � temple to pray with my Mum & Bro after tht. Saw Kym Ng while i was at � temple, didn't knw she was a Buddhist as well. She is very petite & looks quite alright since she did put on make-up. Went for a late lunch afterwhich we went 2 Carrefour 2 buy some stuff while my Bro went 2 work. Headed home after tht since i was kinda tired. Think i've been going out too much recently, but didn't really do anything when i'm out.

A few more hrs & i will be reporting at Pasir Ris MRT Station. Haiz finally it�s now my turn. Guess most of my frens did feel � same way as I do right now when they were abt 2 enlist, very sianz abt it I guess. The feeling is really indescribable, can�t really put it down into words. Well, think I�ll definitely miss a lot of things at home. Home cooked food, esp those soups tht my Mum never fails 2 cook everyday, tht�s for sure, though I always complain tht � food sucked. Calling thru 2 Perfect 10 once a week 2 dedicate songs, hahaz. Watching my fav TV shows would be a miss as well, since I won�t be around for 5 days in a week. Chatting with my bro wld be another thing I wld miss & many many more. I know I sound as if I�m going 2 migrate or die, but for those of u who�ve never been thru this, u won�t knw � feeling tht�s inside me now.

Feelings aside, I do have a few things 2 say though, b4 I enlist. Firstly, I really would like 2 thank my Mum for always doing stuff for me w/o complaints these few days. I knw it�s cauz I�m enlisting soon & she jus wanted 2 grab hold of any chance tht�s available right now. I really really appreciate all these things u�ve done for me. I may not express it out or say it out 2 u, but tht doesn�t mean tht I don�t think abt it. Secondly, I wanna thank my Dad for cooking food for me to eat when he�s free. When u knw tht your Dad specially cooked sth 4 u jus becauz u told him u wanted 2 try this & tht, it�s really touching & nice. It�s like he cooks while he works already & now, when he�s free, he still make an effort 2 cook for me 2 eat instead of resting at home. Thirdly, wld like 2 thank my Bro, for always being there for me & helping me out whenever possible. Fourthly, would be � frens around me. Feel so fortunate 2 knw so many good frens, tht I can talk 2 as well as 2 go out with. Sorry, this not an acceptance speech after a prize giving ceremony, hahaz. Oh well think tht�s abt it, so u peeps out there jus enjoy yourself while u can. Esp � gals who r waiting 2 enter University, pls do enjoy as much as u can b4 getting down 2 serious work. All � best 2 u peeps, take lotsa care & I�ll be back soon. Shall update u peeps abt � life in NS, provided tht I do have � time 2 do so. So farewell & wish me luck, AdiOs peeps�.

Oops almost forget, Happy 19th Birthday to Lionel & Zongfu

Went 2 Gavin's place 2 pick up sth 1st b4 heading 2 Zongfu's house 2 pass him his present as well as Lionel's present, since i won't be out tis weekend. We then headed down 2 Marina 2 watch Bulletproof Monk, which i thought was average, not really very nice. Don't really recommend it, if i were to say. Went around Suntec looking for handphone housing, as wat Zongyao calls it, since Zongfu's handphone housing kinda cracked. It's a new phone somemore. Unfortunately, there isn't any, similar case when i was looking for Lionel's birthday present as well as one for myself. Dunno why these 2 handphones, Nokia 6610 & 6510, don't really have tht many handphone housing like other models do. After tht, headed down 2 Toa Payoh's Sakae Sushi 2 hve dinner, since e one at Marina doesnt really taste tht good, before heading back home.

On Tuesday, went 2 Beach Rd wth my bro 2 buy some NS stuff. Quite surprised by e fact tht e shop i visited had a list of stuff tht is recommended for those who r entering NS to buy. Cauz was thinking what if a person doesn't have any bros then how e hell would he knw what is needed in there? Didn't really buy many stuff as i thought i needed to buy. Headed down 2 Millenia Walk 2 buy Zongfu's present, by foot somemore cauz my bro wanted 2 walk there, which i objected but gave in, since i didn't want to perspire, & met Jessica there. She's e only other classmate, besides Yiwei, tht i bumped into e most. Seldom bumped into e rest of e class people when i'm out. Come 2 think abt it, wonder how have 2 rest of them been. Anyway after tht headed down 2 town 2 buy e other part of e present for Zongfu, after which we sat at e Al Fresco Macdonald's outside Isetan Scotts for a drink. Chit chatted & observed e people walking past us cauz we were so bored. Dinner was at tis coffeeshop at Jalan Besar. It was quite a famous stall, selling Curry Rice, think it's stall name, in chinese, is called "Jian3 Dao1 Jian3 Jia1 Li2 Fan4". Aunt joined us for dinner as well since she was jus abt 2 leave her office which was kinda nearby. The food was quite alright, quite tasty but not spicy at all. There were quite a few people queueing up 2 Da Bao it's food. To me, i don't see anything special or unique, jus tht it's curry is quite sticky but definitely edible, don't worry. Went home soon after & packed my stuff for enlistment on Thurs.

Well cldn't really sleep yesterday, firstly it's cauz i was thinking abt stuff & secondly i felt kinda itchy, but it's tht type of itch on e inside, so no matter how much i scratched on e outside e itch was still in me. Well i really can't sleep when i feel itchy, still remember there was a time when i was so itchy, due 2 mosquito bites, tht i cldn't sleep till e next morning. Wow, time really flies man, now it's like only 1 day left before enlistment. Many thoughts crossed my mind while i was lying on my bed. Difficult 2 put it down in words, basically it's jus thoughts abt life, abt e people around me, abt NS etc. Most of e time when i'm thinking abt such stuff, i tend 2 be quite sad & at times i do cry over these stuff. Guess i'm an emotional + sensitive guy. A simple thing can make me think like it's so complicated. In other words, i jus think too much. SiGnZzZ...HaIzZz

Really glad tht i have a Bro, though sometimes i wish i don't. Without him, i wouldn't knw so many things abt NS. Without him, i wouldn't have anybody 2 watch TV with. Without him, i wouldn't knw what 2 buy before enlistment. Without him, i wouldn't knw where r e best places for food. I knw it sounds mushy, but jus felt like saying this all of a sudden. Guess it's cauz of e enlistment thing, hahaz. Still remember when i was young, i was really sticky to him, in e sense tht wherever he went, i would want to tag along. There was this once when he refused 2 bring me out & i cried & ran away 2 some place 2 hide so tht he couldn't find me. Come to think i abt it, i really was so childish & naughty. Think i'm really gonna miss those times when we would jus watch TV together & talk abt anything tht comes to our mind, & e supper tht he always buys for me if i'm hungy in e middle of e night, after i enlist. Jus wanna say "Thanks Korz for everything".

Dad didn't cook anything complicated or special, jus this chicken in a type of sauce tht we've nvr tried before. Tasted pretty nice, since it's sth tht u can't really find in e mkt. Dad says tht it's a type of Hainanese Chicken Rice, but it doesn't really seem so to me cauz it looks so different frm e ones tht r being sold in e hawker centres. Well mayb my Dad will open a food stall & u peeps will get 2 taste it. He's been thinking of opening one since a very long time ago, but think it's cauz of e financial part tht restricting him or mayb he's still doing some mkt observation 2 ensure tht e food he's cooking is "sellable". Anyway really appreciate all food tht he had cooked for me. When i was young, i don't really get 2 eat what he cooks. But as i grow older, i get 2 taste more of his cookings, dunno why also.

Today was jus a slacking day for me, as usual. Oh Mum & Aunt bought Ba Gua today, which i was quite shocked abt. Cauz during CNY, i didnt get e chance 2 eat Ba Gua due 2 e price hike & long queues, esp e Lin Zhi Yuan Ba Gua at Chinatown. Heard it was e best selling Ba Gua in town. Well think wat my Mum & Aunt told me was totally true, it's not necessarily true 2 eat Ba Gua only during CNY, can eat at anytime tht we like. Shall end here for now, cyaz peeps.

Lunch @ Shashilik Restaurant @ Far East shopping Centre was absolutely fabulous man. Highly Recommended if i would say. Let me tell u what i ate: Borsch Soup wth Garlic Bread, Escargo (Snails), Garlic Steak, followed by a cup of tea. Borsch Soup is kinda their speciality, so it's a must to try. Escargo is something tht i absolutely love, after eating it for e 1st time when i was young. I knw, some of u must be thinking it's disgusting to eat snails but then it's really very delicious. At least tht's what i think. Garlic Steak is something tht other restaurants don't normally have, as wat my bro told me. It was really tender and juicy. Yum yum yum yum yum!!!!!!!!!!!!! Ok only one bad thing, the tea really sux but tht doesnt really matter. Anyway it's opened by a grp of Hainanese, my dialect. Really admire this restaurant cauz their bosses serve u presonally, though they don't seem to look like bosses. Bosses cauz it's not opened by only one guy, it's shared btwn many pple, like say 10 of them as wat my mum told me. They dress like normal waiters/waitresses, only difference is tht their kinda old. The restaurant may look run down & stuff like tht but e food still tastes e same after so many years, as delicious as it can be. It's been a few years since i've been there and their food still taste very nice and delicious. Heard frm my mom saying tht even their chefs r like very old. Anyway, this is wat i think larhz, so if e food there is not to ur liking, u can't really blame me. Anyway it's on e 6th floor of Far East Shopping Centre, which is opposite of the Thai Embassy, not e one opposite of DFS Scottswalk. Ok, now as for e price, it's quite expensive but i think it's worth it. Don't think i will go with my frens for now, mayb when i grow up. Will go with my parents or relatives instead cauz then i don't need to pay for it, hehez. Well like for yesterday, it's abt $25 for what i eat or mayb more.

Anyway it was kinda a farewell lunch b4 i enlist. Had it together with my Mum & both my aunts. Too bad my Bro cldn't make it cauz he had exams/tests yesterday. My father was too lazy to come out of e house though he had e day off. Anyway, both of them kinda make up to me in some ways or another, like my Bro's gonna spend e whole of Mon wth me & my Dad will be cooking sth special tomorrow or shld i say today. After lunch, went shopping with them b4 meeting up wth my gang of frens. Happen 2 see this butch at Far East Plaza, which was really disgusting. She had boobs, yes she didn't put on tht thing, don't knw what u call tht. She was wearing singlet & it was kinda see thru, so u can see her nipples, which was damn big. It really disgusted me alot man. Well i dunno what u call her larhz. Butch with breasts? Watever.....Didn't do anything much after tht, jus had dinner & went 2 Heeren's Arcade 2 play their typing game. Saw this NS guy who was really expert in this man, super pro. When Gavin & i played & he was behind looking, it was damn xia suay & pressurising man. Oh yah, talking abt Gavin, he looks alright, not much changes, though at 1st i told him he slim down, haha. Well mayb it's cauz of his hair larhz. Anyway hope he takes lotsa care of himself, cauz he was kinda sick. GtG....CiAoz peeps.

Was quite pissed initially wth my Bro yesterday cauz he brought his frens over for a Mahjong session, at e wrong time somemore. He does it very frequently last time, but it's different now. He only brings them over once in a while. When he brings his frens over, they will take over e whole room, which means tht i can't use e com since e com is in his room. But he doesn't do it very frequently nowadays, so shall not be tht mean, besides it was a Public Holiday Eve. Well sometimes i wish i had my own room or tht e com be put in some other parts of e house so tht i'll get to use e com even when his frens come over. But i thought over it & can't really seem to find another place to put it.

Anyway, cauz of e Mahjong session, i had 2 turn 2 bed early. I figure out there wasn't many things to do, no nice shows on TV, no com to watch, nor any nice VCDs to watch, so decided to turn in early. Think it was really a bad decision to turn in early, cauz i cldn't get to sleep. Thoughts were running through my mind, abt life ahead, abt my family, abt my friends etc. Really did make me think alot, till i kinda have tears in my mind. Shan't go into e details. In addition to tht, i've been heading 2 e toilet very frequently as well. Think i have a bladder problem or something, kinda worried actually speaking. As i thought too much abt stuff, i wasn't sleeping though it was 5am in e morning. I really cldn't slp at all. I hve a feeling tht my 1st day in NS will be like tht. Can imagine tht coming. Eventually, i was too tired & fell asleep till like abt 11am yesterday for Brunch.

Didn't do anything much yesterday cauz i stayed at home e whole day. Didn't really feel like going out, becoming a home-person recently. Wanted 2 pass Lionel his Bday present since i wont be out nxt wk & he'll only be out for 1 dy. But he told me not to. I shld hve gone down though he insisted tht i shldn't. Due 2 my laziness & e rain, i decided 2 stay in eventually. ArGhzZzzzz....LAzY asshole....tht's what i m becoming. Ok need 2 go off cauz need 2 wake up early for a blood test in order for me to buy an Insurance Policy. Luckily it's a clinic nearby, otherwise i wld be very sianz. Think i shall give Carrie a call before i head 2 slp, normally do it once a week. Think it's become a habit of mine. AdiOsSsSs peeps....

Wanted 2 update my blog yesterday, but something was wrong with my template, so didn't dare 2 make any changes, otherwise all my efforts in changing e colour & adding more details 2 e blog, ,might be wasted. Think there's something wrong with e server or something. Well shall update u on what happened on Tuesday. Met up with Huiting for Lunch, which was at City Hall's Cafe Cartel. Been having pastas recently so decided 2 go for it's Chicken & Mushroom Macaroni instead, since i've tried e Seafood one already, which was quite nice. Actually Macaroni is a type of pasta as well right? Oh watever....The only thing is tht it's not really very filling cauz e portion was deifnitely less than e Seafood Macaroni. Still remembered tht e Seafood Macaroni was really filling e other time, so filling tht i cldn't finish. After tht, went 2 Starbucks 2 have some coffee. Sat on e comfy long cushion couch, ordered a Rhumba Frapuccinio & chatted with her. We didnt really have e cushion couch 2 ourselves, we had 2 share it with some other people, initially. H/e, manage 2 move to another set single seater cushions much later, which we didnt have 2 share with cauz sometimes we can't really chat abt certain stuff if we shared. We chatted for like 3 hrs, till abt 6 plus, when i decided 2 have dinner at Starbucks, since Huiting needs to be home for dinner. I ordered a Big Hot Cocoa + a Double Chocolate Brownie, which was quite nice but really expensive. Oh yah, u must be thinking why i had so little for dinner, shall tell u peeps later. Chit-chatted & talked abt Huimin, which was Huiting's God-Sis. Since they hvn't met each othr for ages, decided 2 do a good deed before i enlist & asked Huimin whether she was free 2 pop by & have a chat with her God-Sis. She was, & she came abt 8pm & we chatted all e way till like 9.45pm. Really had a great time chatting with Huiting, seldom do tht with my close frens, as in sit down in Starbucks for like almost 7 whole hours & jus chatted away. Don't think my close frens will enjoy it like i do. Really hope tht they will continue 2 keep in contact, at least more frequently then when they were in JC. Jus hope tht they had a great time too, cauz they didnt really chat much, there were times where it was quite silent. Well guess they dunno where to begin after not seeing each other for 2 whole years i guess. Ok, ok, enough of tht. Went home & started 2 surf for blogs/websites, as in those people tht i don't knw of. Realise tht this kinda help me pass time by more quickly by keeping me occupied, since i don't hve many things to do when i'm online . Huiting kinda recommended me this gal's blog, whom she doesn't know e person. I started frm e beginning, which was in Nov 2001, i think. fWah, she's a real Cosmetic freak, crazy gal, fanatic or watever. She's really very very crazy abt these stuff & i really can't stand her man. If u peeps r bored & hve really nothing 2 do, u can go see how comestic freakish she is man & u will understand what i'm saying. Ying Ying is her name & u can click on her name for her blog. Hvn't finish reading her blog yet though, quite lengthy man, i must warn u.

Wednesday's lunch was cooked by my Mum & I. Cooked Carbonara w/o e help of my dad & tht's e reason why it tasted like shit? Hahaz. Well it wasn't very nice, at least tht's what i think. Think i shall stop eating pastas, really very sick of it already. Oh talking abt eating, I don't really have any appetite recently. Tht was y i ate so little for dinner. It's like no matter how delicious e food looks to me, it doesnt really make me crave for it or want it very badly. Really dunno why i've become like tht. Anyway till abt evening time, e pipe under e sink in e kitchen burst & my whole kitchen was like flooded. Luckily my mom's fren was nearby, otherwise our PUB bill will be very high man. Well tht's abt it for yesterday, didn't do anything much, slacking as usual. Most probably will be going 2 buy Zongfu's present tomorrow i guess. Think this entry is too lengthy, really very sorry abt it, jus have many things to say i guess. g2g, exceeded e time limit tht my bro set for me 2 use e com. Oh anyway, my bro was damn stupid man. He went 2 look for some food 2 eat in e kitchen, jus now. He came up drinking a cup of milk, complaining tht it was very creamy. I recalled tht there wasn't any milk in e fridge, there was only this packet of whipping cream tht was used 2 cook cream based pastas. And guess what, he was actually drinking e whipping cream which he though was milk. How stupid is he? Hahahaz...i was laughing like mad jus now. Well tht's it, think i better not drag, CiAoz....

fWah, jus realise how nice other people's blog or shld i say webpage, can be. Comparing mine with theirs, it's really a world of a difference man. Well mayb it's becauz theirs are webpages, which they use special softwares 2 design them, while mine is jus a simple template. But really envious of them man, spending so much time 2 design their webpage as well as 2 upload pics. Wonder whether they do pay 2 upload their website on e net...Anyway was kinda bored on Sunday night, or shld i say Monday early morning. Decided 2 surf around for other blogs, blogs of people tht i don't know of. Happen 2 surf by tis guy's webpage, whom is one year older than me. He kinda blogged abt his NS life, frm e start 2 e current situation. It was really funny, all those complaints abt NS. Was reading it out 2 my bro & he was laughing abt it as well. He kinda helped me out with certain Army terms tht i'm not used to. My bro & i also started 2 chat abt NS stuff as i was reading e person's blog, which was really very fun. Felt kinda glad after reading his blog, tht i'm not in e same category as him, cauz if i were, i mayb have 2 go thru e trainings he's going thru or even worse off than him. Well kinda provided me a positive view abt NS life, in some way or another.

Oh talking abt other people's nice webpage or blog, i changed e colouring of my blog. Was motivated by those beautiful webpages and blogs tht i've seen. Do u peeps think tht it's more lively, brighter & nicer? Hopefully it is cauz i spent e whole afternoon doing it, mixing colours here & there. Wanted 2 change e template initially, but couldn't find a nice one, so decided 2 change e colouring instead. Will be chaning e fonts, but can't seem to find a webpage with all the fonts & stuff. Any suggestions of any webpages with nice fonts? Well yesterday, i didnt really do anything much except for changing e colour of my template & to ensure tht it turns out well. Will be meeting Huiting for Lunch tomorrow as well as 2 jog in e morning with my bro? Hahaz....hopefully i'm determine 2 wake up early as well as 2 get out of e house & jog, hehez. Think tht's abt it, shall go 2 sleep now. NitEz.

Was quite touched by e NKF show jus now. Eyes got a little teary when i saw those video clips of families who depend on NKF for help. Think i'm very fortunate already. Mum was like saying tht if she were in their situation, she would rather not go thru all those pain & suffering, she would choose to end her life instead. Realise how precious life can be & e importance of staying healthy. Think tht these families shld be saluted for their determination & will power, for carrying on their lives no matter how hard life can be for them. They deserve our respects.

Went 2 e Mandai Crematorium this morning 2 pay my respects 2 my Grandfather. It was really crowded due 2 e fact tht it was e last day of Qing Ming Jie. Some pple are really ignorant & selfish man. The place was already very stuffy & smoky due 2 e burning of incense, and yet there are people who are still smoking, adding more smoke 2 e place. They really shld be punched in e face or kicked in e ass man. After tht, went home instead of going out with my Mum & Aunt, jus didnt feel like going out at all. So basically i stayed home e whole day. Well, another day has passed, time is running short. My life on e Singapore Island is going to end soon, hahahahaz.

Am very pissed with either my computer or my internet connection. Couldn't connect 2 ICQ & couldn't surf certain websites, even though i'm using Broadband. Well i jus hope tht after changing my computer, my broadband would be faster. But i dont think tht will happen any time soon cauz i'm poor. Anyway didn't go out 2day, running out of places 2 go 2. It's like either Orchard, Marina or Suntec. Besides, don't knw wat 2 eat as well whenever i'm outside. Stayed @ home e whole day, went 2 Golden Mile Food Centre for dinner, after which i went 2 Ikea 2 drink coffee as well as 2 eat their Swedish Meatballs. It's been a long time since i went there 2 eat their Meatballs. Still quite tasty. Always remember those days in JC when i go there after lessons for their Curry Chicken and Hotdogs. Kinda miss JC life man, come to think abt it, except those tests & stuff like tht. Those were days......

Going 2 pay my respects 2 my Grandfather tomorrow morning at Mandai Crematorium. After tht shld be heading 2 my unlce's place or heading home. Life has been quite monotonous for me. Hvn't been training up, as expected. Only slacking continuously. Well jus too lazy at times, a bad habit tht i have. No determination at all man. hAiz...enough of all these complaints. g2g now.

Suddenly feel tht i'm e lousiest son, fren, bro tht anybody could ever have man. Or mayb i'm just a JiNx or shld i say a bAstArd? Well, watever. Wasn't really a gd day for me yesterday, felt very bad & lousy. Bad cauz one of my frens indirectly said something which made me feel really really very bad abt. Lousy cauz i don't really knw how 2 like settle problems tht r happening btwn frens or bros. Seriously am very afraid 2 see pple quarrel or being angry wth each other, esp wth somebody within e clique. Jus frightens me out. Really wanna release e tension at times, but don't really knw how to, was afraid tht i may add oil 2 fire. Well jus hope everything turns out right.

Anyway, went out these few days 2 look for presents & everytime i'm prepared 2 go out, it rained. Quite difficult 2 buy present for friends. First u have 2 like think of wat u wanna buy for e person. Second u have 2 like consider e price of e present & whether it's affordable or within e budget of ur frens. Well, i try to buy things tht e person need & is practical. Find tht it's better tht way & easier, though e things they like or need mayb over e budget.

Was reading some blogs & it kinda made me envious of all those guys out there who have girlfriends. It's like there's somebody who's thinking of u all e time & loves u & misses u like crazy when u r not around. Well, i dunno how e feeling is, but i bet it must be real comforting & warm. = ) Well i will never experience tht, tht's for sure. Hehez. Well to those gals out there who has boyfriends in NS, jus bare with it yar? Try not to think too much. I knw i dont hve e right 2 say this cauz i don't knw how it's like. Well, kinda tired now, think i shall go 2 sleep now. AdiOs peeps!

Insomnia, tht's wat i'm experiencing right now. Not a serious one though. Lots of things have been racing thru my mind each night, esp abt army days. Wonder abt how's life gonna be in there, whether it will be tough or not. Wonder abt the pple whom i will meet in there. Wonder where i'll be posted to after tht, etc. Not really tht worried like last time, a little, very little, excited abt it as well, anxious..... Life in University kinda worries me as well, cauz it's like after 2 1/2 yrs & i've 2 get down 2 work, which i think is really tough. Even if u ask me to get 2 study now, i don't think i'll be able 2 concentrate.Oh well, it's part & parcel of a guy's life. Alright enough of these NS stuff & my worries, don't wanna bore u peeps 2 death man.

I've been as slack as ever, hvn't been training up though i said i will. Guess i never keep my promises? Well sometimes u r jus lazy, yar? But, at least i've been trying to get up early, so tht i can like get used 2 getting up early in NS, which i think it's quite redundant honestly speaking, hahaz. Anyway e earliest so far was 9am which was today, hahaz. Ok, at least i managed 2 like have a training session tomorrow with my friends. Hopefully i'm able 2 wake up & really go for a run as well as do some exercise. Anyway, went out 2day to look for Lionel's Birthday present. Kinda bought it liaoz but then need to search somemore for e right one, cauz i kinda got cheated by a shop assistant. Hopefully can find e one tht he likes & be able 2 buy it on time. Well since i have so much time, think i shld walk around & have a look. Zongfu, don't worry alright, i'm not biased, i will search high & low for something tht u want as well. Hopefully i can find it & tht u like it as well. But no promises, hehe. g2g now, ciaoz peeps.

YoZz peeps, sorry for e late update, been too lazy to do so for e past few days. Well, lunch @ my place on Fri was fantastic, at least tht's wat i think. I thought tht e food was really nice. Woke up at abt 8am tht day & my father was already like beginning to prepare e ingredients & stuff. Luckily i woke up early, otherwise i wldn't hve been able to help him as well as 2 get to see how 2 cook all those stuff man. Actually, it's not as easy 2 make Lasagne as wat my father told me. There were quite alot of stuff 2 do frm wat i saw. Didnt really took down any recipes, sorry arhz Shuqin, cauz was too busy to or shld i say too lazy to, hehe. Anyway i didnt really help alot in e kitchen, as i was too clumsy? hahaz...Well i only gave my father more trouble then assisting him in cooking up e meal. Anyway, my frens said tht e food tasted great, dunno whether it's true or not, mayb they r jus saying it 2 please me, hahaz. Really enjoyed myself tht day, my 1st time cooking together with my father. Think it's great to do something with ur parents.

Tht aside, i've been going out lately wth my frens. Walking around the same places, doing e same things. Guess life is boring for me, can't really think of anything constructive for my grp of friends to do. Oh yah, e fear of contracting SARS is not really hitting on me anymore. I mean, as my friend said, it dpds on ur immune system. If it's weak & u contract it, it's bad news. But if u hve a strong immune system, even if u contract it, u will still recover frm it. H/e, one must still be careful abt such stuff, but there's no need to lock urself up at home, at least tht's what i think. If i really do tht, i think i'll become a pig in no time man. Eat, sleep, eat, sleep, eat, sleep.......Anyway, jus bought a huge FourSkin pouch for $15, think it was really worth e money. Besides, needed a pouch too.

Well, my days r coming 2 an end soon, hahaz. Enlistment Day is approaching & i hvn't gone train myself up and stuff. My family members r all asking me 2 go run in e morning & stuff like tht. Well hopefully i can start tomorrow, since my bro offered to train with me. Think it's really nice of him man. But doubt he'll be able 2 wake up. Been talking to him recently abt many things, feeling closer 2 my bro each day. Think it's great 2 have a family member whom u can talk to abt personal stuff. Have always envied my friends who talk to their parents abt their personal stuff, resulting in them having a close relationship. Think tht shld be e way 2 have a close family relationship. Oh well, guess i shld stop saying all these stuff, hahaz. g2g, need to wake up early tomorrow for my PT session, hope i'm able 2 in e 1st place, hahaz.

Well, quite excited abt tomorrow's pasta cooking session. Was supposed 2 be a simple pasta meal, Carbonara, to be exact. But apparently, my father was having e day off, so he'll be cooking Lasagne 2 go with e Carbonara. Hope it turns out to be nice. He said it was pretty easy to cook Lasagne, but i didnt think so. Will be helping out in e kitchen 2 learn some cooking skills. Think it'll be fun cooking with my parents. It's been a long time since i did anything with both my mom and dad. Guess i dont have a close relationship with them like some of my friends do. Sometimes i really envy them, cauz they tell everything tht is happening in their lives 2 their parents. I know i can do e same, but it's so weird right now, like when i'm so old. I mean like this type of thing is like a habit or sth like tht, u start frm young. I dunno jus feel tht mayb i'm not putting in e effort. Well it's e same as my bro as well, i guess.

So, today, i had to go to Carrefour with my mum to buy all e ingredients. Asked my Dad 2 go along, cauz i seldom go out with him, but he was jus too lazy. Then instead of taking a taxi back, i had to walk all e way frm Carrefour 2 e MRT Station, carrying 4 bags of stuff. Was quite pissed with mom cauz she wanted to like save tis amt of money. But then realise tht it was a good exercise for me & tht it wasnt tht safe to take 3 taxi as well. I think i shld really go and work out or something, think i'm really really very weak.

Tomorrow - Avril Lavigne

And I wanna believe you,
When you tell me that it'll be ok,
Ya I try to believe you,
But I don't

When you say that it's gonna be,
It always turns out to be a different way,
I try to believe you,
Not today, today, today, today, today...

I don't know how to feel,
tomorrow, tomorrow,
I don't know what to say,
tomorrow, tomorrow
Is a different day

It's always been up to you,
It's turning around,
It's up to me,
I'm gonna do what I have to do,
just do

Gimme a lil time,
Leave me alone a little while,
Maybe it's not too late,
not today, today, today, today, today...

I don't know how to feel,
tomorrow, tomorrow,
I don't know what to say,
tomorrow, tomorrow,
Is a different day

And I know I'm not ready,
Maybe tomorrow

And I wanna believe you,
When you tell me that it'll be ok,
Ya I try to believe you,
Not today, today, today, today, today...

Tomorrow it may change

This song kinda describes my feelings recently. Think it's a lovely song. Jus hope tht each day will be a better day.

Quite freaked out with many things recently. 1st, it's e SARS thing. Quite scary to go out nowadays, u jus dont know whether some SARS victim may sneeze or cough at u accidentally. Went to Orchard on Sat & noticed e significant decrease in e no. of people. Suntec was really very quiet on Mon as well, but tht mayb becauz of e fact tht it was a week day. Well jus hope tht there will be a cure for it & tht this time of turmoil will pass by quickly. For now, i guess i'll try to stay at home yar?

2nd thing wld be e enlistment. Gavin shld be on his way or reporting 2 e centre already while i'm posting this. All e best 2 him & hopes he takes lotsa care of himself. The reason i'm freaked out i think mayb becauz e harsh trainings tht i had in my sec sch. I kind of have a phobia of it. It was torturous both physically and mentally. I guess i'm jus a weakling? But been telling myself tht since i'm able 2 pull thru those harsh trainings, i shld be able 2 do so for NS, though my bro said tht e feeling & training wld be totally different. Guess it's true, but still don't understand why he suddenly told me abt NS stuff e other night. Think he wants to get me mentally prepared. Jus hope for e best i guess? Hehez.