.My fav pic, look at the smile on my Grandma's face.

3:39 PM

Sunday, February 26, 2006

.Some pics from my 21st Bdae.

3:26 PM

.Zongfu finally ORDs.

2:15 PM

.Ugly.

When I was 7, they said I was strange
I noticed that my eyes and hair weren't the same
I asked my parents if I was OK
They said you're more beautiful and that's the way
They showed that they wish that they had your smile
So my confidence was up for a while
I got real comfortable with my own style
I knew that they were only jealous cos

People are all the same
And we only get judged by what we do
Personality reflects name
And If I'm ugly then so are you
So are you

There was a time when I felt like I cares
That I was shorter than everyone there
People made me feel like life was unfair
And I did things that made me ashamed
Cos I didn't know my body would change
I grew taller than them in more ways
But there will always be the one who will say
Something bad to make them feel great

Everybody talks bad about somebody
And never realises how it affects somebody
And you bet it won't be forgotten
Envy is the only thing it could be

2:45 AM

.Mugging Mode.

Studying mode has been activated. Have been constantly going to the library to study with my hall-mates for tis week. H/e, progress is pretty slow due to the fact that i need to read through many times before actually understanding the whole concept. Too bad, i'm not like those smart people, who need only to read through it once & they understand everything. Really need to study more efficiently here instead of "dillying dallying" or taking my own sweet time. For now, studies have kept my mind of certain troubles of mine, which i guess it's a good thing.

Oh, before i end, i got a huge shock from my Mum the other day. She knws abt wat i wrote in my blog. She's one of those people whom i would least expect to be reading tis blog of mine. Nevertheless, somehow i'm glad she knws abt it, since it conveys my thoughts & feelings to her which i was never able to do so in person. Thanks to my cousins for telling her abt me, it was really a surprise i must say. By the way, my dear cousins, u can always leave comments even though you aren't a member or watsoever. Jus click on the word "criticise" & u will see sth similar to a tagboard & frm there u can leave comments.

1:57 AM

Friday, February 24, 2006

.A New Layout.

No originality, yeah i know. But i don't really have the time to come up with sth of my own, it's too time consuming. Well hopefully this new layout means a new beginning as well. Not completely done yet though, till then...

10:37 AM

Thursday, February 23, 2006

.He.

He never excelled in any sports.
He never excel in anything, in fact.
He is talentless.
He ain't good looking.
He was never the centre of attraction.
He was always the person whom people tend to overlook & forget.
He always felt neglected.
He felt as if nobody truly cares abt him except maybe his Mum & Aunt.
He doesn't hve a best friend nor a confidante.
He really wish he cld hve one though.
He feels tht sometimes his friends take him for granted, but none of them think so.
He absolutely detest tht feeling.
He is someone whom his friends will only look for if they hve no one else to go out with or if they need to ask him sth.
He feels tht he doesn't really understand his close pals at all.
He is really upset abt certain things, but does his friends really care at all?
Mayb a few of them ba...

1:07 PM

Sunday, February 19, 2006

.A Bad Start.

Ever since this sem started, nothing seems to be going smoothly for me, in academic terms. I've flung my quizzes, and by that, i really mean flung. I'm lagging behind tremendously & i don't feel good at all. I don't wanna feel so upset after every quiz i take. This has really demoralised me alot & i'm afraid that i maybe dropped out of the programme. I really have to stop dreaming & focus now.

12:13 AM

Friday, February 10, 2006

.Flung.

His quiz was a goner. Feeling remorse definitely, but too late for regrets, he told himself. This is the first time this has happened to him ever since he got into varsity. It really shows the extent to which his mood had affected him. Utterly disappointed in himself, he continues to blame himself for being such a procrastinator & a slacker. He needs to buck up, seriously.

8:42 PM

Tuesday, February 07, 2006

.Him.

He was supposed to be studying, but no matter how hard he tries to, he can't seem to be able to get into the mood. He's losing concentration & his mind seems to be drifting in a different direction. He wonders why his life is like that & he envies almost everybody around him but himself. He feels his life is miserable & longs for a change in fate. He's really tired of thinking abt all these stuff, but he can't prevent himself frm doing so. He's really unhappy, but nobody seems to notice. He asks himself, "Why am i the only one who feels this way? Why am i like that?".

He's really tired & weary from all these constant thoughts that bug him everyday. He's losing confidence & faith. He tries not to show his emotions but deep down inside, he feels torned & tremendously upset. Does anybody really know how he feels at all? Does anybody care? Why do people always take him for granted? Why do people always look for him only when they have no other options? Is he really that bad a person or such a lousy friend? Does he always have to feel so lonely & helpless?

2:01 AM