.Hostel.
Jus did é online application for it, kinda excited, but also worried tht i can't cope. But i really can't wait to stay in hostel, cauz i kinda need a space of my own. Sharing a room with my Bro is really inconvenient, especially when he brings his GF ever so frequently to our house to stay. I can't use the computer, i hafta wait for them to wake up in order to take my stuff or clothes to change. I mean with me stayin in hostel, he can bring his GF everyday if he wants to & he can play Mahjong as many times as he wants with his friends.

Talking abt me Bro, he sometimes can get on my nerves alot, esp of recent times. But i didn't flare up or anything, i jus overlook é whole situation & let it go. I see no point in arguing with him, it only makes our relationship as brothers worst, not tht i am really close to him & all that. Sometimes i jus envy those friends of mine who are pretty close to their Bros. Sigh...

Talking abt envy, i jus realise tht i'm a really envious person, which means tht i envy different people for different reasons. I jus don't feel good abt myself really. I don't think there's anything good abt me at all. I jus don't hve any confidence at all. I jus don't like being me. I tried looking on é bright side, but it only lasts for a little while before all these -ve thoughts start coming back. Haizzz...

.No More.
No more shower caps, no more dressing, no more hassle. H/e, there's a scar & é swell hasn't really subsided yet. Am really praying that i hve no more of tis, i've really had enough.

Quite worried abt é handing over of my work, afraid that i may not hve enough time to do a proper one. Staying at home has really made me not wanna go back to camp anymore, but i guess i hve no choice but to get my ass out of é house. Really wanna settle it once & for all, so that i can leave with a peaceful mind.

.Refresh.
Pretty bored at home, so decided to change é layout. Hvn't really fine tuned it yet, so stay tuned.

.No Pain.
The anesthetic was well injected this time round. I cldn't even feel anything, even when é doc was "digging" out watever that was left. é only exception being the initial part, é injection of anesthetic. I really hope tis will be é last time that i will be going through tis. If it happens again, my morale will definitely be affected big time. A million thanks to Xiong for é much needed company, i really needed someone to be there with me.

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