.Hostel.Jus did é online application for it, kinda excited, but also worried tht i can't cope. But i really can't wait to stay in hostel, cauz i kinda need a space of my own. Sharing a room with my Bro is really inconvenient, especially when he brings his GF ever so frequently to our house to stay. I can't use the computer, i hafta wait for them to wake up in order to take my stuff or clothes to change. I mean with me stayin in hostel, he can bring his GF everyday if he wants to & he can play Mahjong as many times as he wants with his friends.
Talking abt me Bro, he sometimes can get on my nerves alot, esp of recent times. But i didn't flare up or anything, i jus overlook é whole situation & let it go. I see no point in arguing with him, it only makes our relationship as brothers worst, not tht i am really close to him & all that. Sometimes i jus envy those friends of mine who are pretty close to their Bros. Sigh...
Talking abt envy, i jus realise tht i'm a really envious person, which means tht i envy different people for different reasons. I jus don't feel good abt myself really. I don't think there's anything good abt me at all. I jus don't hve any confidence at all. I jus don't like being me. I tried looking on é bright side, but it only lasts for a little while before all these -ve thoughts start coming back. Haizzz...
12:26 PM
Monday, June 20, 2005
