.Coincidence.
I don't know why but i rarely succeed in asking my friends out. Most of é time, i jus wait for my friends to ask me out instd, since i know that i will always oblige, unless due to some unforeseen circumstances, for eg i hve other appointments that were made way before they asked me, or they are watching a movie that i feel i shldn't waste my money on, etc. I rarely turn down their offer (as far as i can remember).
But whenever i try to ask my friends out, my efforts are usually futile. It gets damn discouraging & i really wonder why at times. Is it plainly jus coincidental that they hve sth on or i'm jus plain unlucky? Last time i used to get very pissed off abt it, but nowadays, i jus leave it to fate. I don't deny that i really lack initiative in asking people out, but you really can't blame me for not doing so since every time i tried to ask, i really fail miserably.
Oh well, it's jus sth that i think abt now & again, though i don't really bother as much abt it as before. I guess it's bcauz i don't hve that many friends & i don't hve a girlfriend. I think i hafta learn to be independent, to do things on my own instd of always waiting for people to ask me out. In that way, i wait for no one & i depend on no one. I jus live my own life, doing things that i like. H/e, an obstacle stands before me, i hafta overcome my self-conscious character in order for me to achieve that. I vow to overcome it & change. I am determined.
