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Range was quite alright, nothing much. Did pretty alright, thanks to é team. My night shoot could hve been better though, if not for my faded luminous tip.
é long weekend is coming to an end, sad to say. Though i fell sick in between, still managed to buy all my clothings for the upcoming festive season. Am feeling quite sick still, due to é fact tht i didn't really rest proper. Feel a little guilty as well for spending so much, it makes me feel like a spoilt brat. Sigh...
Been thinking alot lately & still feel kinda detached, like i don't belong anywhere. I feel tht mayb i really demand too much, or i'm too difficult to satisfy. I really dunno wat i want. I can't think of a proper solution whenever i'm in such a situation. All i know is that i get very upset when i'm in tht kind of situation. I don't want to be like tht, but i jus can't seem to get myself out of it. I get pissed & at é same time pissed people off, which is not a good thing at all.
I guess somehow it's my competitive nature tht's taking control. I jus wanna be é best tht i can be. So when i knw tht i'm not é best, i will jus get upset & back off. I knw i don't hve sportsmanship, i'm jus a plain sore loser, a very sore one indeed. I need to work my way round it, seriously.
