.� Break.
Days away from camp, something that i've awaited for quite sometime, something that is much needed, something that i wish had lasted longer. Yes, humans are greedy, they always tend to want more than wat they have. Me included. � dread of going back to camp is getting heavier, as time ticks away, it gets closer & closer. Well shan't grumble much, jus hafta get myself back into � working mode & everything will be back to it's usual state again, before � next break arrives.

� break was quite a fulfilling one, as in i didn't waste it away staying at home & doing nothing. But there's something amiss in tis break, i felt. Though i did hang out with my group of good pals, we didn't do it together. As in we didn't meet up as a group but separately. That was wat i felt was lacking. Last time, when there were festive seasons, we will definitely go out together, as a group. But nowadays, things seem to be different. We don't meet up that often & everyone seems to be busy with their own stuff. I couldn't get used to it initially, but now i guess i'm made to get used to it.

� reason: We are entering a different phase of life, which entails meeting different people, experiencing new things, change of habits & viewpoints, doing things that are different from � past, etc. It's all part & parcel of growing up i presume. I personally know that � bond still exists & that is wat that matters, but how much truth exist in phrases that talk abt � importance of keeping each other at heart, without � need to meet up so frequently? I somehow have doubts myself, seriously speaking. On � other hand, it's a mutual thing, so it's � effort in keeping in contact that counts as well. For tis, i'm quite a failure due to my lack of initiative. There's a reason behind my lack of it, but it's my own belief so i shan't elaborate further. Ok, i'm digressing.

Going back to � main topic, i dunno whether i'm � only one feeling like this, or mayb i'm jus too traditional if you wanna put it that way. Don't worry, it's not as serious as i sound here. I've learnt to accept things as it comes along � way. Though i may not understand why it must be tis way, i'll figure my way out. No matter how much i wish things would be � same, it'll eventually change, it's jus a matter of time. I may not be like my friends who never lack of activities to fill their calenders, or friends who have their other halves to accompany them all � time, or even friends who can jus be alone at home for most of their weekends, but i'll survive i think. A spare tyre is one where people seldom use, unless there's a need for it. So mayb i'm jus waiting for be used, that's all.