.Ego.
I realise that all guys hve ego, some may hve a little too much of it, that it actually irks others. Being ego-istic can be good, since it helps to build a little self-confidence in yourself, but having too much of it can actually pollute your mind & put yourself above everyone else, as well as thinking highly of oneself & making one proud in some ways or another. I do admit that i hve a little ego, but definitely not too much since i'm a person w/o much self confidence. Mayb that's why i tend to get a little irritated when people become ego-istic.

There are times when a person's ego can grow continuously, until someone is needed to poke it in order to tone it down before it gets outta hand. Is there really a need to show how good you are? What is there to prove? So what if you are good? There's no need to show how good you are cauz if you are really that great, people will know it & will respect it. But if you try to flaunt it, people won't respect that, instead they think you are too haughty. So, it's better to know your limits before you start to irk other people off.

I realise that when it comes to work, don't expect other people to appreciate wat you hve done, be it for them or for � team. You may think that wat you hve done is alot, but to others it may mean nothing at all. Recently, i felt that i'm not as enthusiastic abt my work as compared to last time. Mayb it's becauz I don't feel appreciated by some of my colleagues whom i'm working with. Or mayb they tend to outshine me, so much so that my work seems menial. Sometimes it's � mistakes i made that pull me down & makes me feel useless. I know that you should learn from your mistakes instd of brooding abt it, but when too many mistakes are committed, you tend to lose enthusiasm in your work & feel demoralized. I don't dare to say i put my best in � things i do for now, but i will still put in effort in doing watever i'm doing. It's definitely not � right working attitude, but i jus don't feel enthusiastic enough to put in that much effort as before. I'm a sucker.

I'm taking way too much time to type my entries nowadays. It's like wat i'm thinking & wat i'm typing is totally different. I jus can't seem to put my thoughts into appropriate phrases. This deprives me of blogging my thoughts & feelings down. I'm really in � mood for blogging, but i dunno where to start from, seriously.