Hatred grows...
I absolutely detest my Bro, i seriously do. He brought his frens over 4 Mahjong session again, for � 3rd time in tis entire week. I really can't stand it, but there's nothing i can do. Complaining won't work since � only thing tht happens is a scolding frm either my Mum or Aunt, afterwhich, not before long, he'll bring his pals over again. Well i really give up hope on him, i can't be bothered 2 care for him anymore. � only reason i'm keeping quiet abt all these, is becauz my Mum did tell me tht no matter how angry i am with my Bro, he's afterall my Bro & tht my Mum dotes on him more than she does on me.
A space of my own
I really wish i cld hve a room 2 myself, a computer 2 myself, a TV equipped with Cable TV 2 myself, clothes of my own which i don't need 2 get worried whether my Bro will dirty or destroy it, etc. Mayb i've grown up & i wanna hve my own privacy or at least i can still surf � net in my room, even though my Bro brings his pals over for Mahjong. I mean i cld be less angry with him, if only i cld hve a room of my own, a space of my own. Guess stayin in hostel wldn't be a bad idea, since i don't need 2 put up with my Bro's activities. Besides, he can bring his pals over everyday if he wanna or mayb set up a gambling den.
I've decided 2 give up thinking abt certain stuff, it's too tiring. I'm surrendering, you can say tht. If it's meant 2 be, it's meant 2 be, no point in forcing it 2 happen when it's not gonna happen. I guess no matter how hard i try, my flaws in character will always obstruct me. I guess i don't hve much perserverence in me.
