Stupid?
Was watching tis show on Ch 5 & it made me realise tht i've forgotten almost everything tht i've studied throughout my entire life. It was a competition btwn � different secondary schools in Singapore or wat i wld term it, "Singapore's Brainiest School". It got me worrying for a while there, since i wld be heading 2 University after NS. Really don't know how i wld be able 2 cope wth studies during my 1st year, since i wld hve 2 cramp everything all over again into � tiny brain of mine. Jus felt tht after headin 2 NS, i've become more stupid & i can't seem 2 remember simple formulas or theories tht i've learnt before. Sign, thinking abt this jus makes me depressed & worried abt my future.

Talking abt � future, i wonder how � working society wld be like. Wld it be some sort of like � NS life tht i'm leading now or cld it be worse? But in � 1st place, wld i even get 2 find a job? It jus seems so bleak or mayb i'm jus too pessimistic abt my future. Jus dunno where i'll head 2 or wat i'll be doing, since i don't hve any goals or amibitions 2 achieve. Nevertheless, there's one thing for sure though, politics. It will never cease 2 exist in any working society, i suppose. Really dunno where this root frm, but it definitely isn't beneficial. Sign....

Sorry for � depressing thoughts there, it's jus me i suppose, ever worrying abt everything. Mayb tht's why i'm a coward, a timid asshole. Oh well, will be doing Guard Duty tmr, sianz. If you think tht i've become numb 2 doing it, you are totally wrong, i still hate it as much as before. Hope time passes by quickly, so tht i can get it over & done wth it.