R & I
It's a new beginning for me, heading 2 R & I tmr. It's something tht i've decided on after giving much thought. But there's still a possibility tht i mayb pulled up 2 be my CO's (Commanding Officer) Personal Assistant (in short, COPA). I've given up on worrying or thinking abt whether it's good 2 go up or not. Jus leave it 2 fate i guess, cauz i'm sick of thinking & worrying abt it. Don't wanna be paranoid over such stuff. If it's meant 2 be, it'll be, but if it's not, it won't. Simple as tht.

Heading 2 R & I means adapting 2 a new working environment & working wth new people again. Wonder wat's like being there & whether i'm able 2 work wth � people there. I'm quite excited but worried as well, as i usually am whenever there are new things happening in my life. Cauz i really dunno wat 2 expect & whether i'm up 2 it as well. Jus alot of doubts i guess, whether it's a good thing 2 be there, whether it's � right choice etc. Sometimes, when you are so used 2 being where you are now, you jus don't feel like changing anything at all. Tht's � feeling you see. But people do hafta move on, i realise, you jus can't stay in one spot forever.

I'll definitely miss � times where i wld work wth my section mates, repairing wpns together & chit chatting at times. It's these bonds btwn my section mates tht i'll miss � most if i hafta say. I knw it's not like i won't be seeing them again but still it's something close 2 my heart. Hopefully, i'll still be able 2 hang around the section when i hve ? time, 2 maintain � bonds tht i had build wth them. Surely don't wanna feel like a total stranger, when i hang around wth them during my free time, after only like a few wks in R & I.

There's one thing i worry abt though, it's whether they'll still work when i'm not ard. I'm not boasting abt myself, but it's jus tht sometimes i'm � one tht starts � ball rolling, in terms of repairing wpns, heading out 2 receive wpns for component or take-in repairs etc. If i don't start, most of � time they'll jus sit ard, not doing anything at all. Surely don't wanna see tht happen, cauz i'll feel guilty abt it, it's like i've caused it 2 happen. Once again i emphasize though, i'm not trying 2 show off here. But even if it does happen, it's beyond my control. Like wat my fren said, � section will still function w/o you cauz work still has 2 be done. This i totally agree. Guess i'm jus contradicting myself. Mayb it's sth else tht i worry abt but am not able 2 put it into words for now. Guess i'll hafta wait & see if anything goes wrong in � section w/o me. Till then..........