Fitting In
It's only � 2nd day at R & I but i still don't feel tht i fit into � section. I still feel like a stranger intruding other peep's territory. I guess it's becauz i'm � only new one in there, as compared 2 when i jus got into my previous section, where i had a few othr peeps tht were new 2 � section as well. So it wasn't as lonely as now, i suppose.
Another thing i felt is tht there is someone who's a better candidate 2 be in my position right now. He's like so sociable, communicates easily wth everybody in there & he feels so comfortable being there. I seriously think he's a better person as compared 2 me. He fits into � picture better than i do. Besides, i bet he's able 2 do a better job than me. I'm not jealous, instd, i'm envious of him. I hve a feeling tht actually i'm � alternative choice rather than � main one, for � position i'm holding now in this new section. If � section I/C of his section allowed him 2 join R & I, i guess Jiahao wldn't hve approached me at all.
Hopefully it's � "joining-a-new-section" blues i'm experiencing now. If not, i guess i'm jus not good enough for tis position. Nevertheless, i'll try my best 2 learn & give my best in tis new section tht i'm in. Don't wanna let them down in any way.
Having mixed feelings abt � whole situation tht i'm in now. I'm glad in certain ways, but also upset in many others. Having a bad premonition abt � future, in terms of friendships. Seems like i can nvr escape � clutches of tis term for my entire life.
