Resurfaced
She wasn't feeling well, but she still bought dinner back for us. But before she cld sit down 2 hve a proper meal, she starts 2 hear somebody complaining, grumble or wat hve you. Her face was already dull & restless & now she has 2 hear all tis, which definitely adds on 2 her endless problems tht seems 2 linger on in her life. She's been keeping all these 2 herself, trying ways 2 settle all her problems. But her mind is not able 2 withstand all these pressure & finally, it explodes.

I don't remember � exact words, but it's something like tht. She screamed: "Now wat's wrong wth you? (After hearing a little of wat ? othr party has 2 say...) You don't feel like eating then don't eat alright? You always complain 2 me tht you are sick, wat else can i do? I've already brought you 2 see � doctor & now you still complain 2 me. Hve you ever thought abt me? I'm sick right now you knw & i hve 2 tolerate all of this. Do you know how difficult things are for me?" She's really frustrated. � other party(she), a little frightened, but still frowning & mumbling was abt 2 take � box of fried rice 2 eat, when she took it away & threw her own packet of duck rice 2 her. She initially didn't feel like eating anything, but after she exploded, she decided 2 eat so as not 2 make her more agitated. Due 2 her poor eyesight, she thought it was chicken rice (apparently she's like a doctor, she determines wat she can eat & wat she can't) & didn't wanna take it. She after looking at wat we are eating, decided 2 change back instd. Didn't want things 2 worsen, i wanted 2 change wth her. But she was so pissed off, tht she snatched her packet of duck rice away frm her & shouted: "(To me)Forget it, don't change wth her, if she doesn't want 2 eat, jus let her be. (To her) You don't wanna eat then don't eat. Go buy your own dinner then."

She thought it was in a moment of anger & wanted 2 take tht packet of duck rice back. But she was serious tis time & prevented her frm taking it back, shouting: "Go buy your own dinner! Go! If you don't wanna eat, it's not my problem anymore. If you wanna die, jus go ahead, it's none of my business." She was shocked tht's for sure, so was i. She went back 2 her seat & kept quiet. You cld see tht she was definitely hurt. Not knowing wat 2 do, she left � table & headed back 2 her room.

Tis time round, i really cldn't hold back my tears, headed straight 2 � kitchen & allowed it 2 run down my cheeks. My mind was thinking: Why does tis hve 2 happen again? Wat's going wrong? Wat shld i do? Not wanting 2 let her knw abt me crying, so went back 2 hve my dinner. But not before long, she left � table, saying: "Don't ever expect me 2 buy dinner back again, i tell you. Don't even expect me 2 cook dinner from now on." She headed 2 � living room instd 2 hve her dinner, though i knew, frm � looks of it, i don't think she cld really eat anything at all. One thing's for sure, she still cares abt her, although all � harsh words tht came frm her mouth doesn't seem 2 show. I hve a feeling tht her leaving � dining table was 2 give her a chance 2 come out 2 eat. Besides, another reason for me 2 say tht she still cares for her, is becauz after numerous times of her saying tht she won't buy dinner back, she still buys in � end.

She definitely did say some harsh words there, but it shows tht she cares for her, tht's why she's getting fed-up. But is tis really � right way 2 treat your mother? But if she doesn't do it tht way, wat other ways are there? Telling her silently & patiently will only allow her 2 be choosy & to grumble more. Wat abt her? Is there a way 2 help her? Is there really something wrong with her or is she jus trying 2 get our attn? Is it really true tht if Dad, Bro or me, talk 2 her nicely, she will understand better as compared 2 her telling her? I really dunno. Hve not a single idea wat 2 do...

P/S: Sorry if i'm confusing you with all the 'she' & 'her'. � ones in bold refer 2 one person & those not in bold refers 2 another.