I have...
A vicious mouth. A mouth tht says � wrong things at � wrong time & often offend people. A mouth tht shoots off before i can even use my brains 2 think wat i'm gonna say.

I have a problem at home & i dunno how i'm gonna solve it. It seems like there's nothing much i can do or shld i say there's little as to wat i can do. It's really frustrating 2 see a nice family turn out 2 be like this. It's really sad 2 see people quarrelling or screaming at each other in front of you. It makes me feel tht i'm responsible for it.

I have friendship problems as well. Be it with my camp-mates or with my close friends, it's all becauz of me tht results in all these problems to arise. One is something menial, which shows how petty a guy i am. Another is saying the wrong things at the wrong time, & saying things which shows such a calculative & stingy person i am. I guess i'm not anybody's good friend becauz of my character. I just don't make a good friend at all. Mayb tht's why i feel lonely most of � time, cauz i'm somebody whom everyone shuns frm, whom people don't really like, jus tht i don't knw abt it.

I have a range coming up in April again due 2 my failure 2 pass it once & for all � other time. It shows how lousy i am, how incompetent a guy i am. I'm having a phobia of range right now tht i dread tht day 2 come. I really don't want 2 go through all tht misery i went through during tht day at range. I really have no idea whether i can do it all over again & pass it this time round. I jus have no confidence.

With all these things at hand, 2004 doesn't seem 2 be a great yr for me. With all these problems in � beginning of � yr, does it represent an omen? Does it signify tht everything tht i do, won't be successful at all? I really hve no idea....