A Failure
Yeah tht's wat i am alright. Can't even pass my range when most of � othrs in my unit are able to, how lousy can i be man? Was feeling so demoralised & sad abt it tht day tht i didn't even hve � appetite for dinner. Imagine someone saying tis 2 you:" For those who got 9 & below for � trial jus now, i think you can start taking out your rifle cleaning kits & starting cleaning your wpns." Right smack in � face. Didn't even dare 2 take it out cauz everybody wld be thinking:"Oh he's one of those who cannot make it."
I was practically stoning after tht, my mind kept thinking of how lousy i was & how pathetic i was. They didn't allowed me 2 go home hence i had 2 stay for � entire thing & look at how well my fellow camp-mates were doing. It was really a torture. 1stly it makes me think of how lousy i am, 2ndly i was really very tired since i woke up pretty early tht day & having nothing 2 do at all really makes it all worst. There's nothing i can do abt it since � Army always likes 2 make it's soldiers wait.
Sigh.....still need 2 go back tmr, which wld take another day. Luckily i was allowed 2 go home earlier 2day 2 rest, 2 prepare for tmr's range. Really really hope i'll be able 2 pass it so tht i won't hve 2 be down for � nxt range. Hopefully, wth � little coaching of Master Sivan(my section i/c), i'll be able 2 apply wat he taught me tmr. Jus hope i don't get all panicky & start 2 perspire, resulting in my specs 2 fog as well as drips of perspiration runninng down my cheeks & getting into my eyes, which wld definitely affect my shooting. HaiZzz......
