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Tis family problem ain't ? only problem tht i'm facing currently. Seems like i can nvr escape frm ? clutches of friendship problems as well. First it was during Sec Sch days & now it's during my NS life. I really don't knw whether it's me tht's causing all these friendship problems 2 arise or there's really a problem tht exist btwn us. After some thoughts, i actually think it's ? former. If i weren't tht sensitive, i guess tis problem wldn't hve deteriorated 2 tis state. I'm kinda blaming myself for tis problem tht exists btwn me & him. Really don't wish things 2 be like tht now, but i guess i'm ? only one tht can turn things ard.

Remember me telling you abt a friendship btwn a close camp-mate of mine tht turned sour? Well it's not getting any better apparently. I guess i lack ? initiative 2 approach him, 2 jus say a simple "Hi" 2 him. Becauz of tht, we are like total strangers 2 each other. Everytime i walked pass him, i wld really like 2 say sth 2 him, be it a simple "Hi" or ask how he has been tht kinda thing. But i jus can't bring myself 2. It's like there's tis obstacle btwn us, a wall tht's blocking us. I guess i'm ? one who imagine ? wall 2 be there, tht's why it exists. In other words, there's actually no barrier/obstacles/walls, it's actually me putting up a front for a reason tht i can't seem 2 explain.

Is tis friendship gonna end jus like tht? Won't it be such a pity? I knw i shld really take ? initiative 2 try 2 save tis friendship cauz it's really worthwhile, but it's really awkward. Imagine not speaking 2 him for such a long time, where & how shld i begin? I'm nvr a person who's so sociable & forgets abt things tht easily. I guess it's tht thought of him pushing me away tht time tht lingers in my mind, preventing me frm speaking 2 him. I really don't wnt things 2 end jus like tht. It wld be difficult for my days in NS since i'd be seeing him 24/7, 7 days a wk, 365 days a yr. I'm pretty much at a lost...

My Aunt seem 2 take a 180 degree turn in attitude today. She talked 2 me much more & sounded much better as compared 2 last night. H/e, i guess she's still troubled in ? inside, still thinking abt how 2 resolve tis problem. I really hope it stays tis way & not worsen at all. Trying as much as i can 2 be ? filial son, so as not 2 let her hve a chance 2 get mad at me as well as 2 nag at me. But it seems like laziness always gets in ? way. I need 2 some minor changes in my life!!!!