Worries, worries & more worries
Finally, my course has ended & it's into � nxt phase of NS life. Everytime, b4 i enter in2 � nxt phase, i wld recollect on my previous phases of NS life. Knw tht i've said tis many times, but time really does fly, seems only yesterday tht i enlisted in NS. (I knw, i knw, been saying tht for ages, so jus bare wth me will ya? Hahaz) Recollecting on those times cld be pretty emotional cauz it reminds you of wat you hve been thru, & it brings back memories of all � gd & bad times. Today was pretty much like tht, parting wth some of � gd frens tht i've made during tis entire course, which i didn't expect 2 hve. I knw i'm exaggerating a lil, since it's not like i won't be seeing them ever again. Actually, i'm not tht affected as compared 2 those tht are being posted 2 other units alone. These pple wld hve 2 be more independent, in � sense tht they may hve 2 depend on themselves wth nobody 2 help them at all, & wld hve 2 adapt 2 a new environment again. It sounds pretty scary, hence if i were posted 2 a unit alone, i think i'll be lost & � worst thing is if there's nobody 2 guide you, you'll feel helpless.

Anyway, went back 2 OETI to return all my stuff as well as 2 hve a simple graduation ceremony. Waited 4 � entire day till abt 1530hrs, b4 � ceremony finally begun. (NS is all abt waiting, trying to test your patience i must say.) Received a certificate, which i was pretty shocked since my name was � 1st one 2 be called upon. Headed home after tht & am now downloading Mp3s. Apparently, � sound system is back 2 normal & logging on 2 � net doesnt affect it anymore. � only problem i'm facing now is � broadband speed, it's not up 2 it's maximum. My Bro hvn't called SingTel yet, as expected & i've got no time 2 since i'll be at camp during their office hours. Oh well, will leave it 2 my Bro 2 settle it, which cld take pretty long, hahaz.

Tomorrow will be a new beginning for me, wearing civillian clothings 2 camp instd of uniform, but i'm not at all excited abt it. Instd, i'm more worried so as 2 speak. � reason is, frm wat i observe, i don't think � pple there like us at all, esp � officers. Mayb it's becauz of � trouble we've brought 2 them while we are attached there. If tht's � case, doesn't it mean tht they might jus leave us 2 die & rot there? H/e pple will be ORDing frm there, which means tht we will be taking over, which in turns mean tht wat i've said is not true cauz they will need 2 train us in order 2 take over. Nevertheless, i still hve a bad feeling abt staying over there. Besides, heard tht there's quite alot of politics there (seems like there's politics everywhere, SiGnZzZzzZz.....) & there are pple there tht i don't really like. So, staying in base doesn't seem 2 be tht gd as i've expect it 2 be. Now, i wld rather go 2 a unit where some of my gd frens who were being posted out, who needs help becauz there's not enough manpower etc. But don't think it's possible, unless there's seriously some cock-ups in � postings & more will be posted 2 other units later on. (Jus for your info, another 2 pple who were previously posted 2 base , were re-posted 2 combat units today. So mayb there's hope afterall.)

Damn unlucky 2 be � 1st one 2 be � COS, someone who has 2 come early 2 open � workshop & staying back later than other pple 2 close it. Wonder whether there'll be anyone who wld teach me wat 2 do or like wat i've said, jus leave me 2 die & rot there. Kinda nervous abt it since i knw nuts abt � things i wld hve 2 do. Oh well, sooner or later i wld hve 2 face it so i'll jus hve 2 take it tht i'm doing it earlier than � rest. Am watching The Bachelor: Aaron & Helene Tell All, & guess tis show isn't really a gd way 2 find true love, yar? Quite saddening 2 see a relationship being broken up like tht, esp 2 see how upset Helene was. Am wondering whether women are always � ones who suffer � most when a relationship ends. Mayb there are some men who suffers too but i guess women wld be more affected when it comes 2 tis. Was chatting wth a fren on my way home earlier on, abt relationships & kinda realise � difficulty 2 juggle it. I hvn't experience it b4, hence i don't really knw how it's like, but i knw tht it's not easy. Hence as frens of those tht hve BFs/GFs, we'll hve 2 be a little more understanding, in order 2 make things less difficult for your frens. Dunno whether wat i say makes sense, since i don't really knw wat i wanted 2 say, hahaz. Guess tht's abt it for 2 day, oops, hvn't picked up frm where i left off � othr time. Some othr day perhaps, or mayb there's no need 2 talk abt it already, hahaz. NiTez...