There are really loads 2 learn, after spending 4 days at 6 DSMB, which is � name of my camp. One weapon already has millions of parts, which i may hve 2 remember. And tht is only one wpn out of � 14 wpns tht i need 2 learn. Besides tht, i even hve 2 strip � wpn entirely, into it's detail components, frm a large main spring to a tiny little spring. Was really depressed during one of � days, when i lost quite a few spare parts & also deformed or shld i say spoiled them unintentionally. Felt really down during tht day, felt like i'm a total failure at this area. Am really worried right now tht i'm not up 2 � job of repairing real wpns. Wat if i didn't repair a wpn properly & it causes � death of a soldier while he is using tht wpn? I'll be charged & my future will end jus like tht, a snap of � fingers. Sometimes, NS is really scary cauz some small errors u commit may result in severe punishments which may affect ur future. Tht is wat worries me. Trying to absorb everything tht is being taught 2 me right now, though it's pretty difficult to. Trying to avoid commiting mistakes, so as 2 ensure tht my 2 1/2 yrs in NS wld be smooth sailing. Really don't wish 2 test � system here.

Really miss my days spent @ � previous camp cauz i get 2 rest during lunch time, making me less tired after a day's work. Currently, i don't even get 2 take a nap during my break & lunch times, due 2 � lack of place for me 2 do so or shld i say lack of cooling place for me 2 do so? After moving 2 tis new place, we don't hve a proper changing room as well as a proper classroom like wat we used 2 hve @ � previous camp. So everyday after "work", i wld feel pretty tired & don't feel like doing anything at all. � feeling of going back 2 camp is � most dreadful feeling of all time. It is similar 2 � feelings tht i experienced whn i'm booking in at Tekong during my BMT days, but it's a little better cauz at � end of � day i knw tht i'm able 2 go home. Sometimes i don't even feel like going back 2 camp, wld rather jus stay in bed 2 continue sleeping, but i knw i can't. So i hve 2 drag myself out of bed everyday & do � same thing over & over again, which is pretty boring. hAiz...

Treated my Bro 2 dinner & movie, since i didn't buy him any birthday present. Thought of treating him 2 some restaurant stuff, but he was lazy 2 go 2 somewhere far, so he chose hawker food instead. Watched Tomb Raider which wasn't really nice, though Angelina Jolie looks pretty cool in there. My advice for those who are planning 2 watch it: Save � money up & spend it on something else instd. Went out wth Lionel finally ever since i went out wth him like abt 1mth + ago. Am pretty happy abt it, though i didn't really talk alot tht day & we didn't do anything much. Wonder when will be � nxt time i'll be going out wth him again.

Unfortunately, Gavin wasn't there tht day cauz he was doing Guard Duty. Nxt wk i won't be able 2 meet him as well, since he's weekend will be burnt again. Hopefully � nxt time we go out, we can get � whole gang there & mayb spend � night over at Gavin's place, which we used 2 do so once in a while last time. But honestly speaking, we don't do alot of stuff at Gavin's place, like playing PS2, using his computer, & chit-chatting. It's like abt 2-3am, we'll conked out except for Gavin & Lionel who wld still be hogging onto � PS2. Sometimes, Wee Hwa wld go home since he's house is within walking distance frm Gavin's place & tht he wld rather slp on his own bed than on � floor of Gavin's place. Zongfu & Zongyao wld also do � same since there's nothing much there 2 do. As for me, there's nothing much for me 2 do there as well, but i jus like going 2 his place. Mayb becauz of � company tht i hve, being able 2 spend time wth them as well as 2 chat wth them, which makes it fun for me, though i end up conking out at abt 2-3am. Those were � days man. Well think i'll end here now, still need 2 go back 2 camp tomorrow. SiGnzZzZz, really really dread going back 2 camp, but i hve no choice. NS life sux big time man, so gals out there, count yourselves lucky tht u don't hve 2 go thru tis man.