Not been in � best of mood recently. Feelin a little lost in my life, as 2 wat 2 do & which direction 2 head 2. � feelin of emptiness & loneliness inside, tortures me mentally frm time 2 time. Why do i hve 2 behave like tht, so childish & immature? Why am i such a nuisance, a burden 2 othrs, a weakling, a loser & such a disgustin & ugly person? Why do i hve 2 think so much? Why can't i be someone else, someone who is less sensitive & doesn't think too much abt things tht are happenin ard him? Can someone tell me why? Really wonder whether my existence on Earth is a grave mistake. Mayb w/o me ard, things wld be so much better & pple ard me wld be so much happier than before. Jus mayb...

Watched Hulk yesterday wth my bro, been ages since i've done tht. Sometimes i really enjoy his company, dunno why. Even if it's like watching TV, i really wish tht he was watching it wth me as we can talk abt � show or othr stuff. It was a disappointing show, very draggy, not much action & loads of crap. My bro almost fell aslp. � effects was pretty alright, Hulk doesnt seem tht fake. Wonder why Ong Sor Fern gave it a 4 star rating. Bought Jewel's & Tanya's new album on Fri night, after being conned by one of my frens 2 wear my NS uniform down 2 Orchard Rd. Don't like � feeling of wearing NS uniform 2 walk around town or anywhere else. Think it's really weird & uncomfortable, since i perspire like hell after walkin for sometime in tht uniform. Was given tickets 2 � Courage Charity Fund Concert at Sentosa after buying � 2 albums, which had many Taiwan artistes perfoming. Felt like going initially but after thinking abt � loads of 5566 fans tht wld be there, i thought otherwise & wld rather do sth else, since most prob i won't be able 2 see a thing. Besides, didn't knw who 2 ask along since it was a pair of tickets.

Managed 2 take a ride on NEL, which i must say, can help pple living in Sengkang area 2 get 2 town much faster. It really does save alot of time 4 them, though � cost of travelling is much higher. Guess thy won't mind paying more for shorter travelling time. Will be trying out a new route home frm camp by using NEL, 2 see whether it gets me home much faster or not. Quite apprehensive abt it since i'll be headin home during peak hrs & there mayb breakdowns of � train if i'm unlucky. We'll see how it goes......