Have u ever like not met one of your close frens for at least one month, not cauz he's overseas or anything like tht? Well tht's wat i'm experiencing right now, which makes me kinda miss him. Yupz, it's a guy, which may seem a little gayish, but i hve 2 emphasize tht i'm no gay. I really do hope to meet up wth him soon. It's been such a long time since i've met him, like mayb 1 mth ++, really wonder how he has been. I know i can always SMS him 2 ask, h/e i lack � initiative to or shld i say tht i'm very stubborn? Stubborn cauz sometimes i prefer � other party to do � "keep-in-contact" thingy, since i presume their more busy than me. I knw it's a very bad assumption & it's all excuses.

Mayb u can say tht i'm mad at him, tht's why i don't wish 2 SMS him 2 ask, though i always tell him tht i understand his situation. I knw tht u hve 2 be understanding as a fren but sometimes it's difficult. Imagine only getting 2 meet him once a mth or mayb less than tht, how wld u feel? Right at � beginning i did call him everytime our gang is out, but i was always rejected. So after a while, i was so tired of being rejected tht i leave it up to him 2 do � initiative, to ask us out instead when he's free. But tht was pretty rare. Sometimes somethings might crop up & our plans are cancelled. I really do understand tht he has his difficulties 2 juggle wth his GF, his other grps of frens, his family etc... But it's pretty hard 2 say tht i'm not upset abt it, abt not being able 2 spend time with him.

Am i petty or too narrow minded in my thoughts or jus too demanding? Mayb.. You don't hve to see your fren or go out with him everyday in order to keep � friendship going on, i knw. But can u really not meet up with him at all & jus keep in contact thru phone or SMS? Mayb i'm not in his position, so i don't realise how tough it is to prioritise � limited time u hve, spending with different grps of people. Or mayb i'm jus a lousy fren tht is selfish & possessive?......

Was doing my homework jus now when i decided to stop & post an entry. Yup u heard it right, it's homework. Haven't completed it yet cauz i'm jus lazy cauz i hve 2 search � net for info, which i'm not very good at. Really think tht i'll be a lousy technician, since � teaching is pretty sub-standard down there & i'm a lousy learner cum lazy 2 read up on wat i've learnt.

Finished reading Harry Potter & � Philosopher's Stone, which i knw u peeps must be thinking: "You take so long to read such a simple book? Wat � hell is wrong with you?" Well i'm taking my time in reading it & i do hve 2 admit tht i'm a slow reader. "Work" or "School" has been pretty � same, doing more practical stuff right now, which kind of make time pass by pretty quickly. Will be going 2 Nee Soon Camp frm nxt week onwards, which is much nearer as compared 2 � current one. Hopefully i don't hve 2 wake up tht early then.